this what i really hate.

it happened yesterday and it is being replay in my head today.
when i woke up, i read baby's text msg and all that happened yesterday flashes in head once again. and i broke down. i cried. it really hurts me a lot to hear all those stupid things that they said. and now here i am, trying to control everything.

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first, ITE students are bunch of crap people. oh well, you can say that. i don't mind cause i know i have my future ahead with it.

second, i don't know why my eldest aunt hate baby a lot. is it the way he bring himself up to people around him? and they admit to that. they say yes. B, its not that they don't like you totally. maybe they don't accept something about you. and that part, i don't know what. i am really sorry my dear. i don't want because of this, we leave each other. i don't want. don't care about what people say. don't care about what people think. just one day you show them you're not really that bad after all. i am trying my best to be the better person in this house.

i hate to whatever things that happened here. now i know how my other relatives treated us. they treat us good because of some reasons. not because of we are one big family or something. i just get to know that my uncle told his children something that really makes me broke down into tears. when he knows that my mum decided to moved here with them, he told his children that try not to offend us. what is that suppose to mean? are we that bad to your eyes. are we? your children treat us good because of what you've said to them. that's not sincere.! go to hell with all that shits. i don't want any of your sympathy. i don't accept this kind of insincere people in my life. do things sincerely and people can see. if you guys do something because of trying not to offends us, then might as well forget it. i don't need all that. sucks big time LOSER!

you can say me and my sis the most degil one in the family. yes! i admitted that!. but you haven't seen the rest of my other siblings attitude. you can say them the better ones. well, go to hell with that. NO!

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