everything that happened here. was a 'was'. its all a past.
be it bad things and good things. and i'm glad that i am much happier now. especially with baby boy. ((:

be it family, friends and relationship.

family, it has changed. changed from trust to no trust. from sincere to no sincere. form believe to no believe. silence was killed yesterday night. and i didn't killed it as it wasn't really fully my fault. isn't it true that i always stated the facts and logics. isn't that me? i was born naturally to be rough, stating facts, using my brains to think logically. sometimes my words can be harsh. and that can only be solved if you can take it as a joke or not. or as a fact. yes its true that life is unfair. but we do need some fairness in life. get what i mean by that? i think you surely do. i always stand up for my rights. if i am wrong then i admit it if not, i'll fight for my rights until you can see that whatever i'm doing is i'm trying to help you and its the fact and truth. i was born that way. what can i do more. all i need is trust. thats all. not more than that. cause trust to me its enough between you and me.

friends, i have better friends. be it the lost ones, be it the longest friendship ones or what so ever. i can see who is the one that can be there for you when you needed one. and who's not. and i can see who can be your closest one. that can share secrets. that can just shut their gap. truly enough i had some friends that i can trusted. not all. but fews. i am not going to state any names here. cause overall, i love you guys. be it i believe in you or not. still, you guys are the best. i miss all my friends. be it form kindergarten, primary, secondary, ITE and those people outside. friends of friends, work friends and all. all of you i cherished! thank you! i love you.

relationship, i am glad that i found you baby. so glad. we're 5 months old. and you know what? i cherished you like a precious one. and you are indeed a precious one. fragile one that have to be carefully taken care of. sensitive one that sometimes i have to watch my words. sweetest one that i can just want it more. lovable one that i can just want to love you more. the best among the rest i should say. you're my best friend, you're my lover, you're the closest one, you're the one that i can trust and believe. you're everything to me. i am sorry that sometimes you have to face my problems together. but i don't want you to suffer because of my problems. i want you to be safe. i want you to be happy. i want you to be cheerful every single day. and that's the reason why sometimes i just can't let you go. i tried my best to be the better one. to be the lover that you always wanted and you've been looking for. if anything goes wrong please tell me baby. you know sometimes i can't lie to you. you know me too well. too well, that you know what i tried to do and all. thank you for being there when i needed someone the most. and always, you're the best person that i can call upon when i needed one. i can have your ears to listen to my stories. be it problems, craps, jokes and all. i can have your shoulder to cry on. thank you for everything my dear boy friend. I LOVE YOU and i always do. and i really do. i swear!((: i miss you already.

sorry to momma! i love you. i shouldn't be harsh. sorry for being rude at times. i admit! sorry. :( (well, mum, everything is fine. i love you!)
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overall, why am i being so emo?! well, who cares. say thank you to your love ones before its too late and of course say sorry too. never always think that you can enjoy life. cause the world you're lived in its just for temporary.

GD NIGHT!