[I]sty [P]urwanty

I'll be dead when you're back home.

2011-05-24T19:09:00.002+08:00

By the time when you're back home. i'm sure i'll be on my deathbed. waiting for you to kiss on my forehead and say goodbye!

hello nabil, you know how much i freaking miss you. its been 4 days that you left me for thailand. and 20 more days to go. can you please come back home fast. cause i've already miss every single thing about you. your smell, your kiss, your hugs and everything! i just want you back in one piece just like the way you left. 1 nabil, thats all i asked.

sayang, i miss you and i love you a lot. please be safe over there and behave okay. don't try to do any thing funny okay. please please please behave. i'm worried.

i love you and i miss you the most!

It's Different

2011-05-20T14:54:00.001+08:00

All i could say is,

DIFFERENT.

What more could i ask for? All i asked for is only the lovely side and the sweetest side.

you're going off tmr afternoon. tonight would be the last night i could spent with you. i just wish it will be longer. thats all. I LOVE YOU and I MISS YOU A LOT!

I know

2011-04-20T09:07:00.001+08:00

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1 YEAR!

2011-01-02T01:11:00.003+08:00

one and only!

photo taken at VIVO City

My FIRST PERFECT RAYA!

My FIRST Birthday PHOTO!(MY BIRTHDAY!:D)

My FIRST Phuket Holiday!

My FIRST Picnic!

My FIRST Cycling Adventure at Pulau Ubin!

My FIRST Phuket Holiday 2!

MY FIRST EVER PHOTO TAKEN WITH YOU BBYB!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Nah! 12 hearts for you! :D

Another new year for me!

and dear, thank you for everything that you've done for me. be it tolerating my attitudes, my everything. thank you for sharing half of your life with me.

you know, this is my longest relationship i ever had. and you know what dear, you're the best! :D you'll be the first and the last one. cause i won't leave you dear. you're part of me. i've locked you in my heart and mind already. i love you muhd nabil thaqif. i'll pray hard for the best for us for years to come sayang. and you'll always be mine and i'll always be yours!

HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNI DEAR!

hugs and kisses!
xoxoxoxoxoxox!

THE 11TH! ♥

2010-12-02T23:58:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 11TH MONTH SAYANG!♥
HUGS AND KISSES!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

and yes its the 11th month! i am very very much happy that this is the longest relationship i ever go with my dear bf. and of course i do want it even loooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! till after life dear.!

I MISS YOU A LOT!

IT'S THE 10th MONTH! ♥

2010-11-02T00:15:00.004+08:00

We're 10th months old! and i am so happy that we're had stay this long!
2 more months to go and we're a year old!
I love you a lot my dear fatty boyfriend.
You're everything to me.
Special one and the fragile one.
Am glad to stay this long with you.
Let's go further than this okay baby boy!
kiss kiss
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

and yes!
you mat rep tk menjadi!
hah!

Overall, i love you a lot. to the maximum. and always always step ahead from you. more than you love me! kiss kiss!

can i laugh at your face when i meet you!?

2010-10-27T01:25:00.004+08:00

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=127199994002521&set=a.110473965675124.16534.100001375636646

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i can't believe that you susie, that i personally know would do such a thing towards my friend's friend? didn't you think about any dangers when you did this. yes, it's been a year you've been doing this w/o anyone know. but too bad, this year, on 26 october 2010, we all find out who is Evva Corsten Mabbit. and its you. continue doing this, and you'll know that one day, people will get you back. well, karma's a bitch afterall.

and you susie,

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=127199994002521&set=a.110473965675124.16534.100001375636646#!/photo.php?fbid=138642086160463&set=a.151894698168535.24478.100000440164744&pid=295757&id=100000440164744

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whatever you are trying to do to the next person please abort your mission. cause i think it won't happen. its been a year you've been doing this and now, yes! what goes around, comes around. (: happy guilty-ing!

cheers! ni baru aku ckp ngan ko, gi la partaaaaaaaay! enjoy puas2 eh! _l_

WONDERFUL? NO!

2010-10-22T00:19:00.002+08:00

I thought that this month would be so beautiful.

1st week of oct was wonderful. went phuket to have a holiday with bbyb.

2nd week is like a normal day for us. but we had fun. me, with work, interviews and job hunting non- stop

3rd week, it gave bbyb a big impact! he's lost. he lost his loving grandpa 3 days a go on the 19th of october. and i was sad too. cause its a week before my grandma's 1 year death anniversary.

dear, be strong. i was like you when i know i lost my loving grandma. and worst! when i see her at the hospital, i can't even talk to her. cause she's in coma. and worst of all, that day after visiting her, i was out having a lot of fun with friends. ignoring calls from my sister. and i only found out when i was crossing at the traffic light. i was lost. lost completely. and of course i do understand how you feel. slowly, you'll let go of the feelings. time will show all. make yourself busy, busy completely. that you won't notice that time is moving.

unlike me, i'm staying at her house now for almost a year already. the chair that she always sat is there. and the house is completely quiet without her. when i'm alone at home, there's no one that i can turn to and talk. cause everyone has gone to work and school.

you're still lucky to have your grandma to talk to, to laugh with, to share anything. but i don't have any. except for one that don't even recognize her own grand daughter! :(

dear, take care of your grandma for your late grandpa. accompany her whenever you can. if there's a will, i would love to meet her. (:

i love you.

and please my dear OCTOBER! please please please be nice for the rest of the 2 more weeks left!

fyi!, october have 5 weeks! heh!

THE 9TH MONTH! ♥

2010-10-03T03:13:00.002+08:00

Awwwww!
It's THE 9TH MONTH!
(yesterday, 021010)
♥
Well dear, i'm gladly and happy that I'm with you! so so so HAPPY!

We keep this relationship long till after life okay!
♥

I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU DEAR.
ONLY YOU!
ONE and ONLY MONSTER!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

my first perfect raya!

2010-09-29T01:03:00.002+08:00

My first ever peeeerrrrrfect raya with my dear boyfriend.
heheheh! ((:

oh well dear i'm yours for a week and yes! we're going for HOOOLLLIIIDAAAYYY!!

yey! PATONG BEACH GET READY TO WELCOME US! AND THE GALLERY HOTEL, PHUKET, GET READY TO WELCOME US TOO!

WEEEWOOOO!!!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

(and yes! let's celebrate our 9th month over there okay!)

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY DEAR! ♥

2010-09-12T23:47:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY DEAR BOYFRIEND!
I LOVE YOU FOREVER TILL AFTER LIFE.
♥♥

I hope you like the shoe that i've bought for you love. take good care of it. but take care of me better than it okay! hehehehe.

I'm glad that you enjoyed your day just now.
I'll see you tomorrow dear! hugs and kisses!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Just maybe

2010-09-03T01:40:00.002+08:00

I am trying to be active towards my dear, tumblr. hahahahs. its been like 2 to 3 months of not updating it. then i was back for like 2 to 3 weeks ago. and now i'm back to it.

just maybe i may be there permanently. but not here anymore. MAYBE ONLY. cause this is the place of all the memories that i have since AUGUST 2005. and yeah, its been 5 years and a month now. 5 years of memories are all in here.

i may or may not leave this place.

cause the past was ugly. but now and present is really wonderful! beautiful! full of butterflies *especially green ones!*
i wouldn't want to to let go my current life just like that. its precious! so much precious and better! :D

okay,
i got to make a decision. either tumblr or here or both! (:

I LOVE YOU BABY BOY! HUGS!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

The 8th month! (:

2010-09-02T00:02:00.003+08:00

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

We're 8th months old!
YEY!
I LOVE YOU!

I LOVE YOU! PERIOD!

2010-08-25T01:13:00.002+08:00

♥

It's going to be a month that you're in NS!
less than 2 weeks would be our 8th month and 10 days later would be your bday. i've planned a lot for both days. and i really want it to be a beautiful one. a perfect gift for you.

dear, for your info, 7 month plus is the longest relationship that i ever had. and that's with you. i am excited to celebrate all the happy days with you cause i never had one before. you should know that.

thank you for everything dear. i love you. thank you for tolerating this pampered, degil and rough princess of yours. (: i want to be yours forever and i want you to be mine forever.

just let whatever people want to say about you or me or even about us being together. be it. don't care. don't even bother to like ask them why or what so ever. cause they're not happy. jealous. as for my family. i'll prove them wrong to whatever things they may think about you. don't worry about it. i am staying strong while you're away for NS. and seriously, NS IS TESTING OUR PATIENCE.

i want you to know that whatever i do, i always think about you. sorry if i never even msg you sometimes. but i ensure you that, whatever i told you is what i did. i never lie. did i ever lie to you? cause i ever lie, you should know. if things get different between us, my love for you would never change. it will grow EVEN BIGGER.

yes i am sick. you should know that i am degil. i won't like to stay home even though i am sick. i would rather go out and smell the fresh air outside. i'll stay home from tmr onwards. except for work and terawih.

i wish that you're her with me every single day. hugging me and kiss me. cause i missed that already. i cried cause i love you. i dont want you to leave me. i dont want us to end. cause right now it's already complete.

I LOVE YOU DEAR. FOREVER.

I AM LOOKING FORWARD FOR 2nd SEPT AND 12th SEPT. I LOVE YOU TO THE MAXIMUM! HUGS!

ps: this not a break up letter or what my dear friends. its a share thing.(: i love my boyfriend.

friday the 13th!

2010-08-13T13:40:00.002+08:00

its friday the 13th! and this is the 3rd day i've been staying home. and the 3rd day of fasting month. and the 3rd day of me not fasting cause i can't!

and i just can't wait for today to turn to tmr and tmr turns to sunday! cause bbyb is coming back home.! yes my big monster is coming home. after not seeing him for 2 weeks!:( i'll punch your face! lol!

oh my god! dear come back home fast! i miss you a lot dear. i want you now!

UNTOUCHED
The Veronicas

I go ooo ooo you go ahh ahh
La la la la, la la la la
I can la la la la la la
I wanna wanna wanna get get get what I want, don't stop.
Gimme, gimme, gimme whatcha got got
Cuz I can't wait wait wait any more more.

Don't even talk about the consequence
Cuz right now you're the only thing that's making any sense to me
And I don't FICA a what they say or what they think, think.
Cuz you're the only one who's on my mind.

I'll never ever let you leave me
I'll try to stop time forever
Never wanna hear you say goodbye.

[Chorus]
I feel so untouched and I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you.
I feel so untouched right now, need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Goin' crazy from the moment I met you.

Untouched.
And I need you so much
See you, breathe you
I want to be you
Ah la la la, ah la la la

You can take take take take take time time
To live live the way you gotta gotta live your life
Give me, give me, give me all of you
Don't be scared, of seeing through the loneliness.

I want it more more more
Don't even think about what's right or wrong or wrong or right
Cuz in the end it's only you and me
And no one else is going to be around
To answer all the questions left behind
And you and I are meant to be

So even if the world falls down today
You still got me to hold you up up
And I would never let you down down

[Chorus]

Untouched
Untouched
Untouched
Ah la la la
Ah la la la
Untouched
Ah la la la
Ah la la la

[Chorus]

Untouched
Untouched
Untouched

the one in red is the chorus part i sang it you yesterday night my dear.

i love you and i miss you so much! ((:

!

2010-08-05T01:53:00.002+08:00

i am an art teacher right now.
not been busy. cause lessons is only twice a day. and its once a week. unless, next week.

they gonna posted me to pasir ris on next week onwards. i don't know which sch. but please give those kids that can behave! goodness!

Babyb is in camp for 4 days now. and he said to me " I HATE NS!" lol! i hate it more okay.
he can only booked out on 11 more days to go. still a long way. but the good news is, after this 2 weeks he wouldn't be going back to tekong. he can booked out almost everyday until his P.O.P! nyeahhahahah!

oh GOD! ONLY GOD knows how badly i missed him. this is terrible men!

i love you dear! hugs!

and thank you for tolerating this pampered princess of yours for 7 months already. heheheh! i love you bacen! hugs! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

the 7th month! ((:

2010-08-02T01:19:00.002+08:00

WE'RE 7TH MONTH OLD!
I LOVE YOU DEAR!
I ALWAYS DO!
FOREVER BABY!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

(and today is your enlistment!)
please do take care of yourself dear.
i don't want you to fall sick okay!
hugs baby!
i love you!((:

yes i am!

2010-07-22T02:02:00.003+08:00

yes! once again! this is going to be 2 weeks of being broke.! no where to go for this whole week except for home! no ciggies! having only 1 stick with me right now is like wanting to save it until i have the money to buy a new one. good thing that baby is controlling my spending habit. and i guessed it will help.

tuesday is the day i am looking forward bby!

the day is getting nearer for your enlistment! and how i wished you wouldn't go! can you please don't go! please!! this is too fast! OMG! ahhhhh!!!!

i need some $ for now. please! oh mum! please. ez link and ciggies only mum! please! pretty please!:x

i love you bby boy! i miss you already!

:(

2010-07-10T00:32:00.002+08:00

i can just breakdown anytime of any of this days. cause, once again the day is nearing. i am not prepared to see him go to serve this country! bleaaarrggggh!-.-!

dear, now you're working. and i am working too. both of us might not be free. but i just wish that at least twice a week seeing your face will make me feel so relax.

i'll just make sure that the last week of this month, i spend time with you. the whole week is yours to be with me. i am so gonna miss you badly.

sadly to say, i can't send you off as your parents are doing that part. but again. how i wish i could send you off. giving you the last hug and kiss before you enlist and meeting me only on the weekends.

*i am crying while typing this right now!* :'(

i love you so much baby! i swear, i do.

i can count the days!

2010-07-07T15:03:00.002+08:00

i can count the days! but i just pretends not to know whats going to happen next month.!

well, should i say? baby going NS! THAT'S REALLY SUCKS!
one, i can't send him off as his parents are doing that part.
two, i would just meet him only for weekends. and that weekends is covering up my weekdays of missing him!. and that's really not enough!
third, i have to get myself real busy!. real busy that until i can forget the weekdays are moving.

and as for this month, I AM UTTERLY BUSY!. only 3 days off in a month!. and that's tiring me out. i have to find a perfect day to do my portfolio. which is today. and i m going to do the drawing and next week, paintings after meeting dilly for some paints and brush. uggghhh!.

not part of my schedule.

my schedule for this month suppose to feel with laughter and some smiles. and of course spending my whole entire day with dear. and that didn't happen at all. i'm working and he's working. we went out only when i having my off. 2 more days of off to go. and after next week, i swear the whole week is for you baby. for you only.

i'm gonna miss you so badly that i can just burst into tears. :'(

The 6th month! (:

2010-07-02T00:36:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 6TH MONTHSARY!(:
♥♥♥♥♥♥
I LOVE YOU!

work! a reminder to me.

2010-06-30T20:12:00.003+08:00

3rd july til 18 july! work almost everyday!. thank you sarah and gilbert! sayang krg gila babi! ((:

eclipse, skipped! post phone for this work! sigh!

?!

2010-06-29T03:45:00.001+08:00

okay now spell my name oppositely. thanks(: heheheh!((:

this would be..

2010-06-29T02:43:00.002+08:00

and this would be my 401 post! since august 2005? and that's consider going 5 years of using this blog. oh well. its going to be dead. sigh! (i guess)

...

and august! the month is nearing. i don't want august to be nearing. cause baby is going NS! uggh! and its on 2nd of august! and thats our 7th month! thanks uh army! champion! of all date, that 2nd of august jugak kamu di- enlist kn?! sad!:((

i just dont know what am i suppose to do. i guess i'll keep myself busy for the weekdays. that is for 2 years. i just hope you'll be fine and i'll be fine. (: I LOVE YOU like SERIOUSLY! I DO OKAY! (:

I MISS YOU!♥♥♥♥♥

sorry!

2010-06-23T23:40:00.001+08:00

i know i've been not updating here. too lazy to do so. lol!
tumblr is not being updated too. for like going a month. lol!.

BABY I LOVE YOU!

♥

2010-06-09T23:55:00.002+08:00

Congratulations to my cousin! You're finally a husband to some one special. :D
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Baby is going away from Singapore AGAIN! to batam with his family. blearrgggh! and lucky it was only for a day. (:
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I just can't believe that we're going to be 6 month old. and its like half a year. and that's what i'm looking forward to. cause baby, (i am acting to know what's NATIONAL SERVICE HERE!) a month before you going ns, you got to do whatever i want you to do. and i don't care! PERIOD! cause i really gonna miss you! seriously! i am going to. why must guys have to go ns?! alah! whatever! i still don;t know what's ns is! boohoo!~

baby, you always ask why i am so manja with you. and here's the answer to that question of yours. because, i miss you. and i love you. the more i manja-ing with you in a day, means i miss you so terribly. so so so bad! if i manja-ing with you a bit, it doesn't mean i didn't miss you at all. i do. even now i miss you. even though we met just now.

so baby, i love you! and i always do. no matter how bad we quarrel, how bad the times goes when ever something terrible happens. i always love you! ALWAYS! (: thank you for being mine!((: i love you smelly monster!((:

♥♥♥♥♥
every month, i'll add in one more heart.
so here's 5 hearts for you for the 5th month we've been together!

As it is.

2010-06-04T03:46:00.003+08:00

everything that happened here. was a 'was'. its all a past.
be it bad things and good things. and i'm glad that i am much happier now. especially with baby boy. ((:

be it family, friends and relationship.

family, it has changed. changed from trust to no trust. from sincere to no sincere. form believe to no believe. silence was killed yesterday night. and i didn't killed it as it wasn't really fully my fault. isn't it true that i always stated the facts and logics. isn't that me? i was born naturally to be rough, stating facts, using my brains to think logically. sometimes my words can be harsh. and that can only be solved if you can take it as a joke or not. or as a fact. yes its true that life is unfair. but we do need some fairness in life. get what i mean by that? i think you surely do. i always stand up for my rights. if i am wrong then i admit it if not, i'll fight for my rights until you can see that whatever i'm doing is i'm trying to help you and its the fact and truth. i was born that way. what can i do more. all i need is trust. thats all. not more than that. cause trust to me its enough between you and me.

friends, i have better friends. be it the lost ones, be it the longest friendship ones or what so ever. i can see who is the one that can be there for you when you needed one. and who's not. and i can see who can be your closest one. that can share secrets. that can just shut their gap. truly enough i had some friends that i can trusted. not all. but fews. i am not going to state any names here. cause overall, i love you guys. be it i believe in you or not. still, you guys are the best. i miss all my friends. be it form kindergarten, primary, secondary, ITE and those people outside. friends of friends, work friends and all. all of you i cherished! thank you! i love you.

relationship, i am glad that i found you baby. so glad. we're 5 months old. and you know what? i cherished you like a precious one. and you are indeed a precious one. fragile one that have to be carefully taken care of. sensitive one that sometimes i have to watch my words. sweetest one that i can just want it more. lovable one that i can just want to love you more. the best among the rest i should say. you're my best friend, you're my lover, you're the closest one, you're the one that i can trust and believe. you're everything to me. i am sorry that sometimes you have to face my problems together. but i don't want you to suffer because of my problems. i want you to be safe. i want you to be happy. i want you to be cheerful every single day. and that's the reason why sometimes i just can't let you go. i tried my best to be the better one. to be the lover that you always wanted and you've been looking for. if anything goes wrong please tell me baby. you know sometimes i can't lie to you. you know me too well. too well, that you know what i tried to do and all. thank you for being there when i needed someone the most. and always, you're the best person that i can call upon when i needed one. i can have your ears to listen to my stories. be it problems, craps, jokes and all. i can have your shoulder to cry on. thank you for everything my dear boy friend. I LOVE YOU and i always do. and i really do. i swear!((: i miss you already.

sorry to momma! i love you. i shouldn't be harsh. sorry for being rude at times. i admit! sorry. :( (well, mum, everything is fine. i love you!)
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overall, why am i being so emo?! well, who cares. say thank you to your love ones before its too late and of course say sorry too. never always think that you can enjoy life. cause the world you're lived in its just for temporary.

GD NIGHT!

the 5th month(:

2010-06-02T16:49:00.003+08:00

We're 5 months old today!
♥♥♥♥♥
I LOVE YOU!

please get well soon!

2010-05-26T15:17:00.002+08:00

i've been sick for almost going a week.! pfft!.

the problem is that, i'm fine with everything. fever is okay. but, my throat! its been giving me problem! when day time, the throat is fine. you can just happily talk, drink and eat just like normal. but when night time came, WTF! you can just take a knife and cut your throat off. the pain is so unbearable! you can't even open your mouth fully to talk, drink and eat like normal. and worst thing ever, i have to STOP SMOKING until my throat is better. klau throat aku tk baeq baeq mcm mane!?:( sad! you can't breath that easily. you have to swallow your saliva hard. i will suffer during night! coughing so hard, that i have to drink a lot of water and all because of that, i keep on waking up!!! i need a proper rest la CB! i can't stand it. this is so like ..... speechless! i can't say anything. PERIT!

baby, i have to meet you. cause you're my medications!:D i love you and i always do! hugs dear monster. i miss you a lot!

my name

2010-05-24T17:33:00.002+08:00

理子
RIKO
(Jasmine Child)
in japanese!

i just need you.

2010-05-24T11:33:00.004+08:00

i just need you!
only you!

i just need you.

2010-05-23T00:06:00.001+08:00

I just need you dear.
only you.

now that i'm sick for freaking 3 days. i hardly can breathe. i have to breathe the air as hard as possible. i hardly eat. cause of the pain in my throat. its just killing me.!

how could i survive? people at home are being so irritating at times. with the utterly boring and sarcastic jokes they made. and its just pissed me off. i need a peaceful rest. where nonsenses and all craps doesn't occur or should i say, ' how would i wish all the nonsenses and craps don't exist. in order to make people's life happier and better.' i wish for all that. but no. i didn't get it at all. i am so sad then i can break down anytime that i can. i just wants my throat to feel better. i want to eat and drink and smoke like normal. :(

this is so so utterly boring.

baby, when can i meet you? i miss you a lot. please meet up soon. i want you. only you. i want to see your only face. only you. no one else. just you and me together. peacefully. please! oh god, i'm begging you to give me peace once more. PEACE!

boring!

2010-05-20T16:16:00.002+08:00

THIS IS SO UTTERLY FREAKING BORING!

DULL!
-.-

edited!

2010-05-20T04:38:00.002+08:00

i should have done better. help sis to do this a bit. and i guess i should have thought her to do it much better. but wait, my knowledge to photoshop software is not that perfecto or superb or what so ever. well, heard of this,

'PRACTICE makes PERFECT!" (:

love love love!

2010-05-20T03:26:00.002+08:00

i met baby! yey!

i was so happy. happy to the max. where the happy mood was like down to 20% and it just shoot up to perfecto! hehehe.

he bought me those things that i love. especially bangles! GREEN colour some more. hahahahahahahas!
my wish is being granted. had a great dinner. got to feed him! yes! and of course playing with the food. cili padi(s) are just not part of my tongue's list. ;) i got to bite him, i got to hug him as tightly as i want and being cheeky with him. and as usual, being so so so utterly naughty!. lol *whatever you guys are thinking, is not what i meant*

met dilly and shasha love on the day baby's back. and yeah, dilly bought cheesecake for me and and and she bought for GREEN rubber band. so much love.((: the night spent with laughter filled with gossips, drawings, being naughty(disturbing people i mean) and being cheeky with one another. heheh(:
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well, baby boy. i love you to the maximum. only you. you. you. you.! no one can replace you from my heart. cause, it's only belongs to you. only you!((: hugs hugs hugs!

YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO GO ANY WHERE THAT IS FURTHER THAN SINGAPORE WITHOUT ME ANYMORE!
PERIOD!
♥♥♥♥

JOB HUNTING!

2010-05-19T16:38:00.003+08:00

when i got back home yesterday night, the only thing that i did after i fresh up myself is, sit on the com and job hunting while waiting for my dear baby boy ask me to call him.

good thing about jobstreet.com and jobsdb.com, is that they done your resume for you in the correct format. all you have to do is just fill up the resume and save it under ms.doc. simple. heheh.

and i am still job hunting!((:

well, baby boy, can't wait to meet you later on!((: hugs hugs hugs!

i love you!

i am so OVER THE MOON!

2010-05-19T02:30:00.001+08:00

YEY!
Baby you're safe home! i can't wait to meet you my dear. ((:

hugs hugs!

I LOVE YOU!

finally

2010-05-18T02:23:00.001+08:00

you're coming back tonight baby! you're coming back tonight!

i can't wait to meet. i love you dear. i really do.! (:

i miss you badly.

2010-05-18T01:41:00.003+08:00

i cried an umpteen times in a day. because,

i miss you so badly. and it just hurts me when i read those msgs that you've sent. i just want to hug you and say this to you, "I LOVE YOU!"

COME BACK FAST MY DEAR. PLEASE DO.
I REALLY MISS YOU!

:(

2010-05-17T23:12:00.003+08:00

hanging there. just hang on. everything is going to be okay.
he'll be back soon.

I AM FREAKING TRYING TO MOTIVATE MYSELF HERE!. I AM SO FREAKING IN THE BAD SHAPE. I HAVE NO MOOD NOW A DAYS. AND MY FRIENDS FIND IT WEIRD. CAUSE THAT IS SO TOTALLY NOT ME.

TOTALLY NOT ISTY PURWANTY! I AM NOT FREAKING MYSELF!

GERAM NYE AKU!

baby, do you know how much i miss you?! do you know how badly i'm in love with you. DID YOU KNOW THAT!?

I LOVE YOU
and
I ALWAYS DO!
♥♥♥♥

i want this!

2010-05-17T16:03:00.001+08:00

♥,
I want this!

uggh!

2010-05-17T14:48:00.006+08:00

i am so bored sitting at home. with nothing to do. the only thing that i can do is that, do some housework. which is like i am so totally like whatever! that is not part of my in my things to do list!

i went to work like normal. working in hotel was like a bit shitty!. i got no mood to talk to anyone. but the 3 supervisors and one of the greatest manager, gwen, light up my day. they disturbed me by talking nonsenses with me. i do the VIP table. and there they are disturbing me while i was serving the guests. -.-. thanks(:

after work, i promised sarah. i went clubbing with her. to powerhouse. tempat tk perlu. i swear tempat mcm tk perlu. i bumped into adam. he put me and sarah in his guest list. thanks. so we don't have to line up. the queue is so long. bumped into TH, and talk as usual. me and sarah find it boring for the first 2 hours. like wth. sarah was high. and she asked me to accompany her to the podium to dance. and i did. i wasn't myself on that day. i wore mask. i hide all the boring-ness and the sadness in me. i put on fake smile. sarah knows how i feel. she just wants me to shake all off and asked me to enjoy. and i did for awhile. our fun was spoil. thanks to this pathetic guy who keep on stalking sarah where ever she goes. this guy is her friend. but he's drunk! and starts to talk nonsenses and all. he talked to me, i shoo him off. i don't talk to people who can't behave themselves. -.-! we went off at 245. took cab with sarah and ken. (one of sarah's close friends). he took care of both of us. and i thank him. he was the one who asked me to grab sarah away from that pathetic guy.

sarah, i won't go again if he still acts that way. i wouldn't want to see his face anymore. pathetic.

baby coming home tmr night. i can't wait to see his face. even though he's coming back tmr, i have to wait for another day.

i miss him a lot. now i know how it feels when the boyfriends of all my girlfriends went to NS. and yeah this is how you feel. you feel utterly boring. you feel like you nothing to do. you misses him so badly that you can just pick a fight. which i don't! you feel like making yourselves so busy that until you don't want to talk to anybody except your own boyfriend. cause its like so long you never hear his voices and all. and the only thing you can do is open up your inbox and read his text msgs that he sent a lot of times. i did that for the straight 7 going 8 days of not meeting him. everyday i checked my phone for his msgs. every morning i wake up the first thing i do is to check my phone if i received his text. if not, i text him non-stop even though he can't text you back that much.

i'm sorry i didn't text you the whole day the other time. i am so sorry. :( i waited for yours. and you waited for mine. i am so sorry. * now i feel like crying!* shit!

i feel so restless for this whole straights days of not meeting you. see how badly i miss you.

i need a rest. never in my entire life i slept a lot of time in one day. i woke up real late. i slept real late. just to make the time past fast i did all that. i played games. but the games are like too boring for me already. i went online. but its boring for me too. all i want is just you my dear. just you!. you're my game, you're my precious one, you're the person that i can have fun with, joke around with, talk to and more. you're the only one.

come back fast. faster! i miss you. :'(

RAWRRR!!

2010-05-15T03:51:00.001+08:00

uggh!

baby,
2 things i want to do to you when you come back and meet me.

1: i hug you tightly
2: i make sure i bite you!

i miss you to the max la monster ku yg bacen! eeeee, geram nye akuuuuuu!!!

blank!

2010-05-14T01:25:00.002+08:00

yes finally you called.
but only for a minute.
still, your voices are playing in my mind.
the sentence 'i love you' is on replay.
the sentence i miss you syg' is on replay too.
come back faster!

...

monday was the last day i saw your face. and that is only for few hours. and that time you were so sick and i was worried.
thought of meeting you on wednesday a day before you go off. but you are still sick. i want you to rest.
i thought i can manage to meet you on thursday after work. but i can't, i ended work at 4 and you went there at around 4 plus. and we talked on the phone for like 3 to 5 mins.
tears drop when you texted me ' baby, i'm going up already..take care..i miss you like mad.'
i feel so bad of reaching home late, i have to buy something. i rushed home. just to get internet connection. to give you a text. i waited for you til i fall asleep. and finally the phone's vibrates. and your text wakes me up. and you're safely landed. (:
i feel so bad for not topping up my prepaid for so long. and its makes you worried that you can't even received a proper reply from me. and a proper call. :(
...

i cried when i typed this whole thing here. :'(

...

COME BACK FASTER DEAR BOYFRIEND!

:'(

2010-05-13T22:59:00.001+08:00

i am holding my tears.
i am super sad.
i miss baby boy so much.

...

'he's at thailand now.'
bye!
:'(

sadly to say

2010-05-13T01:26:00.002+08:00

i am sadly to say that i've last seen boyf's face is on monday. and i am going to see his face again a week later. i have to keep myself so damn freaking busy when he's away from singapore. i don't know what to do except for going to work and staying home the whole freaking day. that is so utterly boring.

i miss having a great dinner with baby. where all the fun and laughter's occur. and always spots different weird people reactions and all. playing around with the food. and i miss feeding you! omg!

BABY! I MISS YOU SO BADLY THAT I CAN JUST SCREAM OUT YOUR NAME NOW!

MUHD NABIL THAQIFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!

I MISS YOU!
&
I LOVE YOU!

i need to go back.

2010-05-12T03:18:00.003+08:00

i admit i've missing a lot of dance's lessons. omg. its been i think around 2 months i've never been going? lucky it was free. lol. i bumped to izzy's photos about the studios that is opening soon in june. i was thinking to join in. but its bring me down back. cause of something. :P

well i guess i better off dancing alone with best friends. just like old time. ((: well i miss those random dance practices to have to ourselves. hahahas. want to have it again bestie?

dance is the only thing that can help me to feel lighter. cause of it i lost some weight. not to forget ciggies too. ((:

nights earthling. get well soon baby.! ((:

sad.

2010-05-12T01:01:00.002+08:00

okay. sadly to say, i'm sad. full stop.

first, dear boyfriend is sick. he's having a high fever. and the look on his face is like so weak and pale. rest well dear. get well soon.

second, he's going to Thailand no matter what. for 6 days. and i really hope that on thursday, he will be fine to go to Thailand. buy some thing back for me. oh, thailand boys please. lol.

third, i know i've never been updating her. only yesterday night was a recent one. oh well, i've been busy working. atrium. and luckily its done. and here i am sitting at home with nothing to do. except for sleep late. not that really late. woke up real late. and guess what i woke up at 2 plus just now. woohoo! congrats! i miss waking up really late and sleeping really late. the latest time that i slept was the next day 9 am. its like i've been awake for almost 24 hours. and yeah i never slept for 2 days before or so. only for a few hours. the little time that i slept last time was only an hour. all that thanks to FILM SHOOTING. i miss doing all that now. ahhh!

fourth, i've never been working since friday. and its almost a week i've been staying at home. BROKE!. i am officially BROKE. luckily i'm working this saturday at hotel. hahahas! yes instant cash. THANK YOU ROXY HOTEL! being a banquet's waitress sometimes can be tiring. well working industry. at least i got experience. :)

fifth, nurul got school. like finally. aidil got school. now some of my friends are schooling. and what am i doing? La salle was a big disappointment. they never even call me. i wasted 60 bucks for the applications fee. and i wasted my time to draw and all. uggh! i regret rejecting H.NITEC in electronics ove at ITE TAMPINES for 3 times. they called for the entrance test, and I FAILED THE TEST! champion!

overall, what am i suppose to do now? tell me.? hmmm..

bye!
...

baby, please get well soon. i love you and we see other soon in the morning okay.
huggies!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FADHIL ABDUL SIDEK!

2010-05-11T00:06:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIM!
Nurul, it's your boyfriend's birthday! lol!.
Dhil, you're 20. well, may you have a blast one alright!
IMY BRO! ((:

...

baby, rest well. i want you to be healthy. i love you!((:

the greatest sympathy to MR CALAMARI

2010-05-04T23:47:00.003+08:00

(SEE, I TOLD YOU I WILL PUT THIS UP HERE).

HEHEHE!

it looks nice though but,
i would like to give my biggest sympathy to MR CALAMARI. lol.
cause baby tried to break it yesterday night and i said " oh! you avenged your angers to calamari right?, no wonder reply my text msgs late." -.- lol.

i just can't imagine if each time you do that whenever i make you angry. alah, sorry la. i love you.

DEAR, GD NIGHT! I LOVE YOU!

like finally!

2010-05-04T00:52:00.004+08:00

i wanted to buy this, (above) but eventually i bought
this: (below)

and i had this in black!(below) i bought it for grad. and i wore it once! lol.

HEELS ARE FOR ME NOW. (but only for some occasions or whenever i feel like wearing) ((:

IRON MAN 2!((:

2010-05-02T01:00:00.002+08:00

Iron Man 2 was A W E S O M E! hahahs. watched it with my dear babyboy on friday together with naufal. ((:
well, i sweared the movie was fantastic. and it is the BEST! ((: (it's worth the money anyway!:p)

oh well, i love you baby boy! i'll always do.!((:

4 months! yey!

2010-05-02T00:56:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 4 MONTH TO US BABY!
((:
I LOVE YOU DEARLY
and
I'LL FOREVER AND ALWAYS LOVE YOU!
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

YEY!

2010-05-01T01:21:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TORTOISE
(or is it suppose to be moose?!)
oh well,
tetek may you have a
BLAST ONE EVER!((:
IMYSM!

♥ ♥ ♥

like whatever!

2010-04-30T11:29:00.002+08:00

this what i really hate.

it happened yesterday and it is being replay in my head today.
when i woke up, i read baby's text msg and all that happened yesterday flashes in head once again. and i broke down. i cried. it really hurts me a lot to hear all those stupid things that they said. and now here i am, trying to control everything.

...
first, ITE students are bunch of crap people. oh well, you can say that. i don't mind cause i know i have my future ahead with it.

second, i don't know why my eldest aunt hate baby a lot. is it the way he bring himself up to people around him? and they admit to that. they say yes. B, its not that they don't like you totally. maybe they don't accept something about you. and that part, i don't know what. i am really sorry my dear. i don't want because of this, we leave each other. i don't want. don't care about what people say. don't care about what people think. just one day you show them you're not really that bad after all. i am trying my best to be the better person in this house.

i hate to whatever things that happened here. now i know how my other relatives treated us. they treat us good because of some reasons. not because of we are one big family or something. i just get to know that my uncle told his children something that really makes me broke down into tears. when he knows that my mum decided to moved here with them, he told his children that try not to offend us. what is that suppose to mean? are we that bad to your eyes. are we? your children treat us good because of what you've said to them. that's not sincere.! go to hell with all that shits. i don't want any of your sympathy. i don't accept this kind of insincere people in my life. do things sincerely and people can see. if you guys do something because of trying not to offends us, then might as well forget it. i don't need all that. sucks big time LOSER!

you can say me and my sis the most degil one in the family. yes! i admitted that!. but you haven't seen the rest of my other siblings attitude. you can say them the better ones. well, go to hell with that. NO!

...

LET ME SHOUT THIS TO YOU AND YOU AND YOU AND YOU AND ALL THE BITCHES AND JERKS AND INSINCERE PEOPLE AND TO ALL FOOLS OR TO WHATEVER SHITS:

I D O N ' T R E A L L Y C A R E A B O U T A L L T H A T!
YOU CAN TAKE IT BACK MOFO!
SUCKS BIG TIME L O S E R!
geram sial aku!
perangai
NBCB!

i miss!

2010-04-30T00:36:00.003+08:00

i admit to my dear bf just now.

I MISS SHOPPING!

i really do. with all the money i had, i have to spent all of to the world most irritating A D U L T fare card. furthermore i spent it on ciggies too. oh my! i have to cut it down.

ciggies:
i realised that whenever i felt so down, lost, confused or stress i intend to smoke more than 3 sticks in less than 10 mins. i mean like within that 10 mins, i can smoke 3 to 5 sticks. tha's consider bad! sometimes i felt so fcuking lazy to smoke. but to think bad, i need to stop real slowly.

fare card:
it's because you miss fare card, i can't go out almost everyday. like i used to last time. where i can just hop on to any bus with the concession i have. now, A D U L T fare card. within 3 days or so, the fare can just vanish to thin air! POOF! now next week, 5 fcuking straight days i'm working. confim kejap abes! NBCB!

...

GD NIGHT EARTHLINGS!

I LOVE YOU DEAR! ((:

Happy 19th Birthday to FADHIL N.

2010-04-30T00:26:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY to FADHIL N.
(fadhil aesthetic)
may you have a blast birthday bro!
((:
hehe!
*please let me conteng ko nye muker as a birthday present!*
LOL!

like OMFG!

2010-04-28T15:29:00.004+08:00

I MISS BABY A LOT.
*eventhough we met yesterday*
but still!

...

LOOK AT ME! OMFG! I JUST HATE IT A LOT. REALLY FCUKING A LOT.
i just can't believe that body belongs to me! ARRRRGGGGH! i can just skip a lot of meals right now.!

BYE UH!
sedih sak!:(

!

2010-04-27T03:33:00.003+08:00

yes! finally i went down to tampines to meet the crazy pills of mine.

was at baby's crib. nurul called to asked if i'm coming down to meet them, and i said i see first. but baby asked me to go. hehehe. and off i went down to meet them.

meet nurul and fadhil first and bumped to goofy. and meet fai and his gf. and bumped to yati and mar. the night was fucking awesome. played monopoly. abg ns mcm confident maen tu card.! the longest and the funniest round i ever played. took group photos. and lastly i have to say gd bye!

i admit, i miss them a lot. back to the old days where laughters and warriors are back. only that goofy wasn't around to join us for the game but only group photos.

fadhil's and nurul's birthday is around the corner. well, tetek, where's my last year's bday present to you? lols! i've never seen you been wearing it. hahahs. well, what should i get for the both of them.?

okay! ciao ciao!

Bye FAIRUZ!

2010-04-27T03:23:00.002+08:00

Gd Bye FAIRUZ RASHID! hehe! dah NS men la die! oh well have "fun" in camp! lols!

I need you, I miss you andI love you.

2010-04-27T01:16:00.002+08:00

BABY,

♥ ♥ ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2010-04-25T16:36:00.002+08:00

ISTY ARDILLAHWANTY!

Yo Lil'Sis! HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY! Study Smart aite nigga!

I am trying my best!

2010-04-25T16:07:00.003+08:00

okay. wait!

look! i am trying my best not to cut my hair to shorter. or even shorter than shorter. lols. and i'm trying my best to keep a long hair with bangs! heh!((: i'll definitely look so much different. and i have to get used of having a long hair. which is like for so long i've never been keeping long hair. hahaha.

but to think about it, i look so much better in short hair.
LMAO!

The only exception - Paramore

2010-04-25T14:23:00.002+08:00

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darlin,
You, are, the only exception
But, you, are, the only exception
But, you, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping it comfortable, distance
And up until now
I'd sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk, but

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know your leaving in the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Oh

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing.
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing.

(:

2010-04-25T01:27:00.001+08:00

yesterday's picnic was awesome! i really had a great time with Baby. how i wish that yesterday will never end. lols!

well, let's do it again some other time okay. I LOVE YOU! hugss my dear!

All about you

2010-04-24T02:03:00.003+08:00

ALL ABOUT YOU
Isty Purwanty

Chorus

It's all about you(x3)
you're the one one i cared
It's all about you(x3)
you're the one i loved
All i need is you
I don't want you to leave me, cause you're my only one

1st Verse

I wanna tell you
the way i wanna love you
I wanna let you know that
i cannot live without you baby
And now is getting deeper(ohh)
everything just feel so right

Bridge

Thank you for making me happy
For standing strong by me
For tolerating my attitude
Thank you for everything

Chorus

It's all about you(x3)
you're the one one i cared
It's all about you(x3)
you're the one i loved
All i need is you
I don't want you to leave me, cause you're my only one

2nd verse

You always there to keep me safe
you make me feel secured
I laugh at all those silly faces
you made
It's great to have you here with me
I utterly love you
and i know you love me too

Bridge

Thank you for making me happy
For standing strong by me
For tolerating my attitude
Thank you for everything

Chorus

It's all about you(x3)
you're the one one i cared
It's all about you(x3)
you're the one i loved
All i need is you
I don't want you to leave me, cause you're my only one

About you(x3)
its all about you
About you(x3)
its all about you
About you(x3)
its all about you
About you(x3)
its all about you

Chorus

It's all about you(x3)
you're the one one i cared
It's all about you(x3)
you're the one i loved
All i need is you
I don't want you to leave me, cause you're my only one

It's all about you
It's all about you
It's all about you
It's all about you

written by: Isty Purwanty & AmYami
Produced by: AmYami
Beats by: AmYami

...

Baby, rmb this. it's your present for 3rd month. I LOVE YOU! ((:

wth!

2010-04-24T01:36:00.003+08:00

the entrance test was like wth!. the paper was like what i've expected. difficult.

the english and the science part was acceptable. but for the maths! mak ai. mampos. its actually not difficult. its just that i FORGOT every single thing about maths. (lucky i know some).

if i can't get in, then i'll just work. next then school!. SAD!

...

BABY, I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS!.
((:
HUGGS!

♥ ♥ ♥

!

2010-04-22T14:09:00.002+08:00

i am sadly to say that i'm not working tmr. got an entry test to be done tmr over at ite tampines. uggh!. oh guess what? english, maths and science. i'm back to secondary school life! uggh! M A T H S! wth!. i just hate you maths!
...

i don't know why i'm getting tired. i've been waking up late. and thanks to the tiredness, i didn't even realise that my alarm clock was vibrating. overslept. and thanks to it that i never even have the chance to meet baby. :( sorry dear. really sorry. i'll pay back the time. ((: i love you my dear. i do!. ((: huggs b! kisses! xoxo! i miss you!

work.

2010-04-21T19:08:00.003+08:00

have to wake up really early in the morning in order to get to work. kennix trust me i've make sure that i gain it from her. well opening shop on my own is quite okay. met new faces and that's it.

the fun part was this. MAI, worked at my place. lols. how cool could that be?. small world. Nurul Atiqah, mai, your friend worked at elc. lols! hahahs. hehehe.

...

on the other hand, i just love what B had done today. (do it again!) hehehe. thank you. i love you! hehehe ((:

DO IT AGAIN! PLEASE!
((:

♥ ♥ ♥

thanks uh!

2010-04-20T15:44:00.004+08:00

will you feel so fcuked up when your mum kick you in order to wake you up?
well, I AM! I am very fcuked up with that. at 9.15 am, she woke me up. and then thanks a lot, mum! you kicked me. if its at the lower part of the body, its okay. i don't mind. but its near my head! i hate people kicking people on the head. PANTANG! now my dear mum, you just did something that i hate. omg!

Baby, i love you! meet you later okay ((:
(but before that i have to take the shop keys.)

((:

2010-04-20T00:45:00.002+08:00

i had fun. seriously i do.((:
thanks baby for the day. i seriously don't want to let you go. you know i'll miss you if you're not around me.

baby,
thank you but i'm sorry. i feel bad. i'll pay back okay my dear. i love you so deeply. i just want us to stay strong together no matter what happens around us or between us. i love you so much that i can't barely see both of us leaving each other. i'm gonna miss you when you go NS. uggh! as promised, i'll treat you to a movie. but it's on the 2 july!. ((: heheheh! by that day, only a month left for us to enjoy our time together. I LOVE MY DEAR MONSTER. huggs dear. I MISS YOU already!((:

BIG HUG!

♥
XOXO

wth!

2010-04-19T01:35:00.002+08:00

i just hate this a lot. real A LOOOOOOOT!

I AM FREAKING OUT! i'm getting fatter. :'(

i just hate it again. i don't like.

any one cares to follow me jog! uggh! to think back, i miss my night walking!

baby i love you ! huggs dear. i miss you!(:

!

2010-04-18T03:13:00.001+08:00

BABY!!!!!!

I MISS YOU LA !

huggs monster!
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

OMG!

2010-04-17T02:06:00.002+08:00

okay like omg!

B got his NS letter. and guess what? thank you so much. he's going to start his first day of being a NS boy on the 2nd of august. and the most saddest thing is that, its our 7 MONTH! and wth. -.-! THANKS A LOT! UGGH! TSK! B, i'll make sure 2 days before you went off, i spent my whole entire day with you. i don't care.! (:

aiyo B! sigh! i miss you a lot la pantat! wth!.

BABY!

BIGGEST HUG

from me to you!

xoxo!

don't you get it?

2010-04-16T02:53:00.002+08:00

why aren't you getting anything to your head? why are you so stupid. you're not stupid but you're making yourself like one. wth! don't think that you're so good in your studies and now you're a sign bond nurse, it doesn't mean that you're everything. you can say my closest friends is like all that, but hello, excuseeeeee meeeeeeee, look who's talking eh? why are you being so stupid? people aren't talking about you. oh come on! your stupid acts since secondary is not even over yet! you have NOT change. still the old self. wth were you thinking. asl mesti terase. ader si kwn aku letk name kamu? ader? she was just saying si biadap. and it doesn't mean you. are you?

i mean, i think i do sound i'm not siding you. like totally. uggh! tsk! i've read his msgs you've sent. and is totally not right by saying all that. why are being so spoil. are you tying to say you're not? well, sorry i guess you are. grow up. be mature can. mane logics? where? i just can't believe that you've asked for a lot of things from him. be it stuffs and love. isn't it enough to you yet? isn't it good enough that he loves for who you are not what you are? if i were him, early stages i already cabot. who can tolerate with that kind of attitude? even i, as your friend can't. gosh! even someone were happen to bang your head to the wall, i think you still can't wake up!. WAKE UP LA FUCK!. wake up!. uggh! bler sak ko nk berubah? bler siol?

uggh! wasted!

I NEED A NEW SPEC!

2010-04-16T00:40:00.002+08:00

I need a new spec! the contact lenses that i have now its already expired. expired for like more than 5 to 6 months!. wth! my eyes is getting tired. like heavy whenever i wore those contact lenses. irritating. so i seriously needed one. like those above. ((: off to wishlist!.

baby! i love you to the max!

can i?

2010-04-15T03:10:00.003+08:00

can i have at least one of those shoe before my cousin's wedding and the bag too. please! uggh!((:
off to the wishlist! ((:

YES UH!

2010-04-15T01:17:00.002+08:00

heheh.((:

like finally, i'm done with it. look how fresh is my skin! ahhh! but i'm not fresh. sleepy! *yawn!*

i keep on playing this question on my head. it like i'm pressing replay continuously.
"what happen when i went into ns?"
that question that's keep on playing.

now i answer
"i will treat everything is normal. and of course i miss you alot!"

cause right now, i can't barely see B far away from me. he's going thailand next month. for 6 days. now i'm going to treat that as if he's going ns. lols! i know wth! -.-
...

whenever you're far away from me, definitely i'll miss you badly dear. real bad. ns is just for 2 years. (uggh! 2 years is like 20 years!) now, i already miss you badly.

b, i love you utterly, and i always do. ((: hugs dear! xoxo!

=.=

2010-04-12T21:19:00.002+08:00

oh,

i am so sleepy. *YAWN!*

but on the bright side. the brightest one ever,

thank you for the night. it's the best!. i love it. ((: thanks dear. thank you so much. i can't stop laughing. and i've been wanting it. thank you thank you thank you! huggs dear.

now i miss you!

:(

2010-04-10T02:17:00.003+08:00

it's just for awhile. how sad could that be?

i wanted the old time. i wanted all. i wanted to spent time with you for as long as i can take it. but for almost a week, i seen you for like a day. and that's like for a few hours. i want you more. badly. how sad could that be?

i miss you badly. do you know how much i missed you dear. uncountable times. really i can't count it at all. at times i felt jealous. (okay wth!) i felt jealous at how my best friend treated her bf. but like whatever for? cause i know i love you. and you too love me. (: ahh, that's the bright side of it.

baby, i love you badly and that's the reason why i can't barely see us leaving each other. i'm so sorry at times if i let you feel that i'm unreasonable sometimes. make you angry, make you worried. make you whatever things that can make you mad. i cried at times, cause i love you.

i can't go to sleep now. cause i can't stop thinking of you. and that will never be end. i will always think about you. i always remember that you'll be by my side whenever i needed someone the most. and you always be with me. will always be baby. will always be. ((:

meet up again. and i want to spent a longer time with you. much more longer. but, to think about it, i've run out of excuses. excuses to escape from these people at home. cause i don't think they trust me anymore.
i love you deeply dear. real deep.

...

ah fuck! i felt like vomiting! cb!.
hugs dear. i love you!<3

oh.

2010-04-09T01:49:00.003+08:00

like whatever.

here i am as a friend is trying to help you with your problems. and you said thanks to me cause i lied to you. sometimes we have to be selfish. selfish for our own good. what past is past. isn't it good that someone is already there to care about you, to love you for who you are. if he's the bad guy and he go for looks, he will definitely won't tolerate your behavior and all. isn't that good. in every relationship there is ups and downs. so whats up with all that stupid commotion you've made? you didn't realise the mistakes that you've done. you've didn't realise it at all. no point for us the friends of yours to help you and to knock some senses on you. one day or so, you still have to wake up. you cannot always depend on ppl. cause we have our own problems to settle. since you're being so so so sarcastic to me, i will too. you've made me go back to secondary school's life. where bitch fights occurred. you want me to be bitchy? yes i can. i will just say, your welcome for all the thanks you've said to me. what should i say more? i can't do anything. i've tried my best. oh i mean the rest of us tried our best to understand you. to understand the situation that you have. and here you are saying all that. like wtf!. to me you're still a child. a child who will never understand what ppl around you have said. what more do you want form him? he has given you the love, the understanding and everything that all women in the world wants a guy with those good qualities. he has it. and you didn't realised it. come on, open up your eyes wide and see. you still have to move on. i mean, don't you think at all? problems can only be solve if you use your brain to think. think logic. understand/ study the situation. you've got brain. use it wisely. like what for banging your head to the wall. isn't it damaging it more. wth. come on. think think think. positive! POSITIVE, LOGIC and UNDERSTAND! without this, it will never end. and it will be stay as a CIRCLE with no opening. everything will stuck in there. and yeah, it will never be free. wtf!. think think think.

all the best old friend. all the best. sigh!

...

baby's wisdom tooth is already out. i can't wait to meet him. have a great lunch/ dinner with him. i can't even count how much i miss him.

hey mr! i miss you to the max!. meet up soon okay monster!((: xoxo! huggs

TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE((:

2010-04-09T00:46:00.003+08:00

I remember what you wore on that first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"

Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing

Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

Then maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking ooh
I can't live without you
Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I figured out
When all is said and done
Cause two is better than one
That two is better than one

2010-04-08T12:41:00.002+08:00

its been so long i never been meeting baby. his wisdom tooth is killing him. omg. i wonder how long does it takes to heal. fast fast heal, so we can have lunch or dinner tgt.

i wanted to catch a movie with him tmr tgt with the others. but with his situation, i think let it heal. when its okay then we go out okay dear. i love you so much.

hugs baby!. ((:

2010-04-07T18:10:00.001+08:00

i've been staying at home for like 3 days. what a boredom!. uggh. speakers not working. no paramore songs to cover up the silence! uggh!

no working schedule for me. not going out to anywhere. :( i'm trying to save money here. working on saturday for money. uggh!. not going anywhere with my dear monster. his wisdom tooth is killing him!.:(

for what i know,
i am getting fatter. i repeat, getting fatter! UGGH CBCBCBCBCB!

hugs dear, i love you! ((:

oh no!

2010-04-06T21:54:00.001+08:00

she appeared in my dream for like twice.

what is that supposed to mean? there's always a meaning when a dead person appears in your dream. its not only once, but twice. is there a sign to it?

Nyai, if you have anything to show me, please do. i just want you to rest in peace. i pray for you. Amin.

now baby, i miss you.

oh oh!

2010-04-06T00:29:00.002+08:00

when you're getting older you intend to dress up. dress up more to the famine side. but still the roughness, the loudness, the "sembarang go" attitude or should i say like a boy, is still there. and its me.

i intend to carry or should i say love carry hand bags. those big ones which can just sumbat anything you want to bring. i wore high heels. but just for matching up with what i wear. (i shouldn't keep my heels in the store room for fucking long. now i missed it.) buying a new one next month for cousin's wedding. ((: i am so going to loving it!. heh!

now i'm trying not to cut my hair shorter even though i have the urge of doing it. and even though i felt jealous sometimes when i see short hairs. uggh! i'm trying hard to keep it long again. once more. trying. and that will be the 3 rd time of life having a long hair. i count okay! one, when i was a kid. then short all the way. two, when i was in first year of ite. and that's it. short hair til now. hehehe. ((:
help me to keep a long hair. ((: -.-

and now,

i am off to bed! *YAWN!*

baby, i love you. huggs dearie!

random 2

2010-04-05T04:08:00.001+08:00

About me (BOLD THE ONES THAT DESCRIBE YOU)

I am a morning person.
I am a perfectionist.
I am an only child.
I am Catholic.
I am currently in my PJs.
I am currently pregnant.
I am currently suffering from a broken heart.
I am left handed.
I am married.
I am addicted to myspace.

I’m shy around the opposite sex.
I bite my nails.
I currently regret something I have done.
When I get mad I curse.
I don’t like anyone.
I enjoy country music.
I enjoy Jazz.
I have a car.
I have a cell phone.
I have a pet.
I have at least one brother or sister.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I’m smart.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have had a broken bone.
I have caller ID on my phone.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have had surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have had the cops called on me.
I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn’t.
I have kissed someone of the same gender.
I have mood swings.
I have rejected someone before.
I have seen the Lord of the Rings trilogy.
I have watched Sex and the City.
I like Shakespeare.
I love to bake.
I love Michael Jackson.
I love sleeping.
I love to shop.
I miss someone right now.
I own over 100 cds.
I own over 100 dvds.
I own & use a library card.
I practice a religion that is not considered mainstream.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I strongly dislike math.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
I was born in a country other than the US.
I watch Soap Operas on a regular basis.
I will try ALMOST anything once.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I can name all seven dwarfs from Snow White.
I am currently wearing socks.
I am tired.
I am currently waiting for someone.
I lost contact with someone.
I hate Miley Cyrus.
I think Party In The USA is catchy.
I’d date Harry Potter.
I can name all the past presidents of the United States.
I know who was president before George Bush.
I love pickles.
I need the internet to live.
I prefer vanilla over chocolate.
I watched Star Trek.
I watched all six movies of Star Wars.
I own an Xbox.
I think music is life.

OH OH! I CAN BE BITCHY AT TIMES.

if you want me to. ((:

random

2010-04-05T03:49:00.002+08:00

and oh,

so this is how the world looks like?

i rmb those sentence from an old friend of friend of mine. which is now he is nowhere to be found. he said those sentence when he opened his stupid mask when hopping off from his bike. besar nye bodoh. where is asari and the gangs of gundus. late night ride in the car back then was awesome. ((: never been seeing you and the others of gundus for like a year plus. let's just say almost 2 years.

i bet the stupid mask of yours that been given from asari from korea is still with you guys. mampos.

RANDOM! i should say RANDOM!

baby, i love you to the max! i can't sleep. :(

((:

2010-04-05T00:07:00.002+08:00

It has been solved.

i was scared to lose you. and that's the reason why i kept quiet and i said nothing. i was too scared that you leave me. and that's why i cried. but i tried to calm myself by making myself busy at work. but that doesn't help. the only thing that helps is your voice.

i wonder why must people do something ridiculous break a couple.? is it because out of curiosity? or out of jealousy or maybe anger?

i'm sorry i went to your account. it was for fun. but the fun turns out differently. i know i shouldn't. but now everything is okay. normal.

i miss you and i love you to the loads.

i wonder how it is if you are not with me?
i don't think i have to wonder. cause it will never be.
plus you, it has complete!. thank you! ((:
HUGS BABY!
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

...

on the other hand,

work,

YOU SUCKS!

why must you give us a last minute job to do? an hour and a half before shop close and you gave us a stupid last minute work to do. and hellllllloooo...there's only 2 ppl in the shop. ho can expect us to finish it by the night? wtf!

F.YOU F.YOU F.YOU!
CB

2010-04-04T18:21:00.003+08:00

I AM TOTALLY ANGRY. PISSED AND FUCKED UP!
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO NEXT. I CRIED AT WORK NOW!. AND THAT'S WHAT I GET! THANKS!

SO, WHAT SHOULD I DO? SHOULD I HATE YOU OR NOT FOR DOING THAT TO ME? SHOULD I. NOW TELL ME ?

superb

2010-04-03T13:54:00.002+08:00

i had a super duper day till night with beloved boyfriend yesterday!.♥♥ heheh((:

woke up early, off to buy hair colour and off to B's crib.

Dyed my hair and the colour turns out errr...okay for me. -.-

oh oh, we had pizzas for dinner. yes! finally. pizzas in my stomach. yummmmyyy!

Baby,

thank you for the great day til night. ((: i love you no matter what. oh, i hope you like my 3rd month present. hehehe. even though to me it doesn't sounds nice. ((: huggs baby. i love you to the maximum!. you're my only monster. ((:♥♥

xoxo!

(: ♥

2010-04-02T03:20:00.003+08:00

and finally the countdown has ended!.

baby, happy 3rd month!.

i love you utterly and i always do.(:

hugs baby! i'll see you at home. let's dine tgt. ((:

xoxoxo!

2010-04-01T14:42:00.000+08:00

HOP HOP HOP

AND THE WAY WE GO!. ((:

I SWEARED

2010-04-01T01:19:00.002+08:00

♥♥ BABY,

i swear that whatever happens between me and my family, its not because of you. i swear. don't worry/ think about it. cause it will never be about you. you're a good guy. and my family loves you too. they like you. even til my last aunt. they sometimes asked about why you never come home these few days and all. and i always said that you're at home or having rugby training. to kill time, i went to work. to escape from the stupid nonsenses at home, i think about you. if anything that makes me sad or something got to do with you, i'll definitely tell you. you know me, i can't keep secrets from you.

every single day without fail, i always think about you. i try to find my time to call you. i text-ed you every single minute. i always know that you're around me when we never meet each other for this long. its been almost a week i never seen your face ( for real). but for that almost a week i never seen you, i always saw you with me. your name remind me of you, your passport photo that's with me remind me of you, your phone number reminds me of you, your msgs reminds me of you, your call records from my phone reminds me of you and of course you your i touch too.

my normal routine (even though you never asked me to do) from morning till the end of the day always makes me realised that i have you. everything that you've done for me, it's still in my head. i still remember when and where and what we doing on the day we first met.((: that first meet up is always in my head.

so baby, don't think anything negative okay. remember what i said. if i said, i'm fine means i'm fine. if i said nothing when i asked you any questions or i never tell you what i'm doing the next thing or day, its means i got surprises for you.

i miss your silly faces that you made when each time i do something senseless ((: i miss your smile. i miss your bleeding teeth (wth! i know) i miss those songs that you sing incorrectly. overall I MISS YOU BADLY.

let's meet up soon. and i can't wait to give you something on the 2nd of april. baby, i just hope you like it if it doesn't look, sounds, taste nice. (it's a surprise remember. i can't tell you what exactly it is.)

Muhd Nabil Thaqif Bin Yaakob,

I LOVE YOU DEARLY!

♥♥

!

2010-03-30T01:48:00.003+08:00

its hurts me when i found out something real bad MYSELF!.

♥
baby, i always love you!

♥

2010-03-30T00:58:00.002+08:00

I AM COUNTING DOWN.

...3

..2

.1

3 more days to go. and yes uh!((:

.BABY I MISS YOU AND I LOVE YOU.
*remember, i always do. and and i'm always around you*
♥♥♥

!

2010-03-29T03:49:00.000+08:00

I AM GETTING FATTER!

THANK YOU!((:

CB!

(:

2010-03-29T03:32:00.002+08:00

its been awhile.

i miss baby a lot. i will be busy doing my own things.

i'm working later on and tmr i'll be recording. and then the next day again i'll be working. and after that i'll be free. and i want my 3rd month with you will be perfect one.

...

cut off date for pay day is already over. but the money is not in yet. i am so irritated by that. i am broke for the whole month and i am trying to survive with what i have now. i got only 2 bucks in the wallet and that's it. i guess i'll ask mom for it. but i will be so difficult. really difficult. cb!

...

i am still stuck with my brain. i guess i won't be attending any lessons in sch for this year. and i am so gonna miss that. poly is already out of question. i don't even get into the course that i wanted. and now i'll just depend on lasalle. which is like i'm praying hard to get it. i had half of the portfolio. and i need more for future. if i never get into any school by this end of april, i guess i'll stuck my life with working full time at ELC. aiyo!. kncb.

...

i am starting to forget stuffs. cause of the accident of my head way back then. it hurts the last week. and the forgetting stuffs habit is back. how uh!. this one some more is giving me problems. lucky enough i only forget stuffs but not forgetting the loved ones.

...

dear monster, i miss you to the core. meet up soon and i want to hug you tightly. i love you!

Golden Village - Ju-On: White Ghost & Black Ghost

2010-03-26T13:12:00.002+08:00

Golden Village - Ju-On: White Ghost & Black Ghost

B! i want to watch this on the 2nd april!? please!((:

((:

2010-03-26T02:21:00.000+08:00

i will get,

2 Boys

They will have a very good relationship with each other. The older one will always look after his kid brother, and set a good example for him. Get ready to buy lots of food because your refrigerator will need to be stocked up often!

i wonder if its real? hmm...?