By the time when you're back home. i'm sure i'll be on my deathbed. waiting for you to kiss on my forehead and say goodbye!


All i could say is,










and yes its the 11th month! i am very very much happy that this is the longest relationship i ever go with my dear bf. and of course i do want it even loooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! till after life dear.!

I MISS YOU A LOT!





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i can't believe that you susie, that i personally know would do such a thing towards my friend's friend? didn't you think about any dangers when you did this. yes, it's been a year you've been doing this w/o anyone know. but too bad, this year, on 26 october 2010, we all find out who is Evva Corsten Mabbit. and its you. continue doing this, and you'll know that one day, people will get you back. well, karma's a bitch afterall.

and you susie,

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whatever you are trying to do to the next person please abort your mission. cause i think it won't happen. its been a year you've been doing this and now, yes! what goes around, comes around. (: happy guilty-ing!

cheers! ni baru aku ckp ngan ko, gi la partaaaaaaaay! enjoy puas2 eh! _l_


I thought that this month would be so beautiful.

1st week of oct was wonderful. went phuket to have a holiday with bbyb.

2nd week is like a normal day for us. but we had fun. me, with work, interviews and job hunting non- stop

3rd week, it gave bbyb a big impact! he's lost. he lost his loving grandpa 3 days a go on the 19th of october. and i was sad too. cause its a week before my grandma's 1 year death anniversary.

dear, be strong. i was like you when i know i lost my loving grandma. and worst! when i see her at the hospital, i can't even talk to her. cause she's in coma. and worst of all, that day after visiting her, i was out having a lot of fun with friends. ignoring calls from my sister. and i only found out when i was crossing at the traffic light. i was lost. lost completely. and of course i do understand how you feel. slowly, you'll let go of the feelings. time will show all. make yourself busy, busy completely. that you won't notice that time is moving.

unlike me, i'm staying at her house now for almost a year already. the chair that she always sat is there. and the house is completely quiet without her. when i'm alone at home, there's no one that i can turn to and talk. cause everyone has gone to work and school.

you're still lucky to have your grandma to talk to, to laugh with, to share anything. but i don't have any. except for one that don't even recognize her own grand daughter! :(

dear, take care of your grandma for your late grandpa. accompany her whenever you can. if there's a will, i would love to meet her. (:

i love you.

and please my dear OCTOBER! please please please be nice for the rest of the 2 more weeks left!

fyi!, october have 5 weeks! heh!














I am trying to be active towards my dear, tumblr. hahahahs. its been like 2 to 3 months of not updating it. then i was back for like 2 to 3 weeks ago. and now i'm back to it.

just maybe i may be there permanently. but not here anymore. MAYBE ONLY. cause this is the place of all the memories that i have since AUGUST 2005. and yeah, its been 5 years and a month now. 5 years of memories are all in here.

i may or may not leave this place.

cause the past was ugly. but now and present is really wonderful! beautiful! full of butterflies *especially green ones!*
i wouldn't want to to let go my current life just like that. its precious! so much precious and better! :D

okay,
i got to make a decision. either tumblr or here or both! (:

I LOVE YOU BABY BOY! HUGS!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥







It's going to be a month that you're in NS!
less than 2 weeks would be our 8th month and 10 days later would be your bday. i've planned a lot for both days. and i really want it to be a beautiful one. a perfect gift for you.

dear, for your info, 7 month plus is the longest relationship that i ever had. and that's with you. i am excited to celebrate all the happy days with you cause i never had one before. you should know that.

thank you for everything dear. i love you. thank you for tolerating this pampered, degil and rough princess of yours. (: i want to be yours forever and i want you to be mine forever.

just let whatever people want to say about you or me or even about us being together. be it. don't care. don't even bother to like ask them why or what so ever. cause they're not happy. jealous. as for my family. i'll prove them wrong to whatever things they may think about you. don't worry about it. i am staying strong while you're away for NS. and seriously, NS IS TESTING OUR PATIENCE.

i want you to know that whatever i do, i always think about you. sorry if i never even msg you sometimes. but i ensure you that, whatever i told you is what i did. i never lie. did i ever lie to you? cause i ever lie, you should know. if things get different between us, my love for you would never change. it will grow EVEN BIGGER.

yes i am sick. you should know that i am degil. i won't like to stay home even though i am sick. i would rather go out and smell the fresh air outside. i'll stay home from tmr onwards. except for work and terawih.

i wish that you're her with me every single day. hugging me and kiss me. cause i missed that already. i cried cause i love you. i dont want you to leave me. i dont want us to end. cause right now it's already complete.

I LOVE YOU DEAR. FOREVER.

I AM LOOKING FORWARD FOR 2nd SEPT AND 12th SEPT. I LOVE YOU TO THE MAXIMUM! HUGS!

ps: this not a break up letter or what my dear friends. its a share thing.(: i love my boyfriend.


its friday the 13th! and this is the 3rd day i've been staying home. and the 3rd day of fasting month. and the 3rd day of me not fasting cause i can't!

and i just can't wait for today to turn to tmr and tmr turns to sunday! cause bbyb is coming back home.! yes my big monster is coming home. after not seeing him for 2 weeks!:( i'll punch your face! lol!

oh my god! dear come back home fast! i miss you a lot dear. i want you now!

UNTOUCHED
The Veronicas

I go ooo ooo you go ahh ahh
La la la la, la la la la
I can la la la la la la
I wanna wanna wanna get get get what I want, don't stop.
Gimme, gimme, gimme whatcha got got
Cuz I can't wait wait wait any more more.

Don't even talk about the consequence
Cuz right now you're the only thing that's making any sense to me
And I don't FICA a what they say or what they think, think.
Cuz you're the only one who's on my mind.

I'll never ever let you leave me
I'll try to stop time forever
Never wanna hear you say goodbye.

[Chorus]
I feel so untouched and I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you.
I feel so untouched right now, need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Goin' crazy from the moment I met you.

Untouched.
And I need you so much
See you, breathe you
I want to be you
Ah la la la, ah la la la

You can take take take take take time time
To live live the way you gotta gotta live your life
Give me, give me, give me all of you
Don't be scared, of seeing through the loneliness.

I want it more more more
Don't even think about what's right or wrong or wrong or right
Cuz in the end it's only you and me
And no one else is going to be around
To answer all the questions left behind
And you and I are meant to be

So even if the world falls down today
You still got me to hold you up up
And I would never let you down down

[Chorus]

Untouched
Untouched
Untouched
Ah la la la
Ah la la la
Untouched
Ah la la la
Ah la la la

[Chorus]

Untouched
Untouched
Untouched

the one in red is the chorus part i sang it you yesterday night my dear.

i love you and i miss you so much! ((: