Wednesday, September 24, 2008 # Wednesday, September 24, 2008
sorry
im sorry! seriously i am. i dont mean to break the promise. serious i dont.
ok, i dont mean it anyway. i was angry and frustrated on that night. and my leg was in pain. i cant stand it. my leg was injured and rezza beat the pain part of my leg. fucking pain and cried. i check if anything happen to my leg. well, i saw a blue black on it!. fuck it man!
i bought a new pack of cigs after like 1 week i nvr bought it. i bought it in the morning. shikin help me to buy it. bt i wasnt unwell that morning. vomitted and having a stomach pain. was fucking pain and al the food that i ate is al thrown out. i was tired. i cant stand the pain. i was crying pain pain in the lorry. shikin and ida was with me. ida ask me to eat. bt i dont want. when we reach shikin's place i went down and i wanted to vomit. bt cnnt. in my hand was my cigs pack. nurul ask me nt to smoke. ida asked me nt to smoke too. so i was like okay den. abg was there. he told nt to smoke just for one day. den i just said okay. nvr smoke for the whole night. slept over at production house and i felt better. woke up very late and forgt to niat puase. wth!. and we were late for richmond shoot uh. shikin drive as fast as possible.
then we reach the location which is at geylang and jia jia's place. i smoked the whole day w/o stopping. i told nurul i wanted to stop. like i realise, i've been smoking and smoking and smoking. thats is why i wanted to be a logger and i wanted to stay indoor which no one can smoke. bt too bad, i became a logger just for awhile till fira came. den whenever they do not need my help, i went out and smoke. smoke and smoke and smoke. wtf!. dan been realising that. i was stupid to let dan taking care of my stuff. whenever i ask for a stick he said no. i was like. no.please one stick more, and i dont ask anymore. i was like...ahh!!. den he said ok. each time if you ask one frm me, i want you to 'steng' with me. den i said ok.
you know about this. and i'm sorry.=( i dont mean it anyway. i've stop drinking, even though its tempting. smoking, it takes awhile for me to stop. i cnnt promise you anymore. cause i know i will surely break it. bt rest assure ppl around me is helping me. dan and you is helping me. even abg and nurul love is helping. im helping both of them also.=)
peace!
upcoming shoot:
wednesday(24 sept)- rezza's (art dept)
thursday(25b sept)- richmond's (art dept)
saturday(27 sept)- fira's (art dept)
sunday(28 sept)- khaliq's (producer/logger)
wednesday, thursday, friday(8,9,10 oct)- khaliq's (producer/logger)
okay im tired of all this uh!. i had fun with this before. but now its diff. with no you and my paper works is making me pressure. goofy and rezza giving me pressure non stop. bt i know in their heart they meant well. thanks to rezza for making me joining you actually in rezzuraction pictures. cause before that i wasnt interested in this. bt after joining you, i had find my way of becoming what on the next level. to goofy. well i know you're irritating sometimes. bt i dont care. i do take it as a joke.lols!=)
ok now kodel and fai is at home with me. lols.! retards!
bye!
