now its holidaes!..kinda bored this few weeks..

but at nyte was kinda lively..hahahs..

talked to aidil at nyte tt one last nyte..forget when..he called thrice..talk craps..

was asleep when he called..answered the phone. he asked if i was sleeping..but i said no..eventhough i was sleeping tt tyme..hahahs..:P!

the first one we talked for i guess 15 mins?..hahahs..he was cooking..cause hungry..! makan jer kau tau!.. den after tt he hung up the phone cause wanna eat..later after tt he called again..this tyme i guess we talked for less than 10 mins.?asked to slack wif hym the next day.well i said ok...and this tyme b4 he hung the phone he said he wanna go shit!..hahahs. hung up the phone again..he said he wanna call me back..but while waiting for his call, i fell asleep..den vibration!..it was hym again.but he called at 2.45 am..which is like i fell asleep for an hour.!..he asked if i was sleeping..and i said yes..and my pp8 is low too..hahahs..den he was like ok la..go to sleep..nytes!..hahas..and hung up the phone..woke up late the next mornin..sleepie..!..waited for the tyme to pass..wanted to get ready..but its still early..cause planned to meet aidil at 2 pm..but he changed the tyme to 2.30 pm.

took my shower and changed!..msged aidil to confirm again..he said ya..

went down to bus stop..and gt up the bus..sec sch gerls were looking at me weirdly..i was wondering y..then i look at their eyes they were looking up to down at me..and hell ya..they look at the cigs on my hand..so wad?!..and they look at me lyke want to eat me up!..so wad if i hv cigs wif me..?..reached aidil's place near CHIJ pri sch..(forgot gthe name)..msged aidil tt ive arrived..met hym at the bus stop and sat under a block near his block. chat chat chat..tts wad we do..den aidil wans to buy bubble tea and waffle..treated hym both..hahas..he was happie..but i was bored..lols..talked about pitching a short film..which is gonna happen soon after reopen sch!..uggh! FUCK UH!..passed aidil the 3 sticks of cig tt i promised to gv hym..hahahs..well i smoked and left hym 2..hahahs he alreadie took one stick..so?:)

while chatting, rain startin pouring down to earth!..wth!..aidil wanted to go skate wif his frens after meeting me..hahahs..he was fucked up..cause raining..and he was afraid if the plan is cancelled..hahahs..but in the end nvr..

went back home..under the rain..lols..wasnt wet..cause the jopurney back home was all sheltered!

well missed the others!..and missed hym alots too!


on monday was like half happy half angry..

happy bcause i saw hym and my first ex..

angry because my 9th ex smsed me asking me to get back to hym..which i dont want at all..whu wans hym aniwae when he alreadie did so many things.

i was lyke WTF! y mus hym smsed me during this hour..!?

im about to like dance my wae home cause i met those whu i loved..den this idiot smsed me..uggh!!!

ok2..now its holiday..but i am so fucking bored!

wad i do is that..either i smoke or eat or sleep or read books or blogging( which im doin right now )or smssing or went online or go out, meet my frens. uggh!!!...help i dont want too long holidaes..i want to go out..to do something tt is fun and enjoyable..please! i want to go out!...OUT OUT OUT OUT!.

SOMEONE PLEASE PLAN A DAY TO GO OUT! I WANT TO GO OUT..OUT!!!


hola ppl!..

had a great day ytd..lols..

met my darl..(chu) to take my N level cert.

met her around 11 plus..promised to meet at 1130..but i was late..blame to the bus driver..drived so slow.! arrived around 5 mins later..lols..

went to former sec sch..took the N level cert..headed to the canteen..miss the canteen so much! met the aunties there..chatted for awhile..saw miss quek..and chatted wif her..she looked diff..hahas..short hair.!

after tt headed to kovan..to buy cigs..ouh..made the wrong choice of cigs..tot of buyin viceroy..but nvr..cause throat wants to hv diff taste..lols..

smoked a stick and after tt headed to the mall..bought something to eat..planned to meet fizah at 1..but was late again..met her 20 mins later..hahahs..had fun at kovan..

met her under the blk wif chu coming along..told her i was sorrie..(did i?) i was late.

headed to ite simei..cause accompanied fizah there to hand in her health report...

met my fwens otw there..saw shiran..walking pass the interchange fast..confirm meeting his ma'am! wanted to call out his name..but he was walking fast..ape la shiran!..

reached ite..hand up the health report..went outside to get to the other side to get a bus..saw goofy.GRANDPAPA!..finally saw hym..kinda miss hym..cause he was nt in sch for so long..approached hym..salam hym..and sae helo!..den i said ok gtg!..and bye!

headed to temp interchange to grabbed another stick of cigs..saw matrep!..hahahs..i forgot his name..cause we used to calling hym tt..salam hym and sae where u goin..and he nvr ans the ques...he asked me where am i frm..and i said frm sch..and he said he gtg..and i said bye..hahahs..

went to cheers..to buys some drinks..bought faves drink..promegranate and blueberry tea(pokka)..buy 2 and cost at 2 bucks.heheh..paid..and waited for fizah to pay her drinks..paid using nets..but was declined twice..hahahs..i was like..she onlie had 2 bucks plus in her acc..so if she paid wif the money left in the acc..of course theres onlie few cents left..

shared my drinks wif her..both my drinks..:)..took bus number 3 and headed to punggol to meet the others there..they went fishing.. arrived half way there and they said they're goin off..cause raining..ytd weather was ok..well i guess at the punggol end was raining..hahahs..spoilts their mood for fishing..long tyme nvr fished since i last touch the fishing rod like few years back.

headed to the kopitiam where they are..eating..reached there around more than 20 mins..cause both fizah and i took the bus one round..hahas.

first thing reached there..reached out another stick of cigs, and augustine asked for one..passed hym one stick and smoked all the wae..

headed to compass point wif fizah and yan hao..cause jasper emmet nicholas and augustine headed home. walked one whole round there..and stop at library cause fizah wants to borrow a book..and me? stop at BEST!..cause i want to look at my baby!..OMG..!its cost $1848..hahahs..its kit lens 2..duh..wif kit lens 1 its just $1199..but i want the cam wif kit lens 2..:)) i want money!.soon soon..it will come..hahah!

headed to the 2nd floor and sat outside..near the stairs..smoked again..hahahs..talking all the wae..waiting for ammar to come though. while waiting, talking is just there to accompany us to cover up the silence..hahahs..yan hao was wif us..chatted wif hym..missed hym alots!!!!...saw some guys break dancing..cool!~they were handsome..(a few)lols..

while looking at them dancing, saw a bunch of ppl walking pass dem..and guess wad..i saw hym wif his frens..hahahs..called out his name and he waved at me. but one thing when i called up his name his frens were laughing..wads wif the laugh?huh!?

he sat at the other end but was inside nt outside..lols..he wnt off to the other side..but his four frens walked pass us..and gv those sarcastic faces..wads wif tt face??huh!

sat there til ammar come at around 5 mins later..hahahs..headed to fizah's blk and sat there to enjoy the nyte breeze..hahahs..nice.!smoked another stick..i guess like a total of 4 sticks..for tt dae..hahahs:)..ammar asked for one..passed hym one..and smoked tgt!..talking again..tts the onlie thing we can do..wad else we can do..i was nt wif my bf..but fizah and ammar were tgt..so i cant disturb dem..hahahs..but chatting wif dem was fun..had a great dae..!

headed home after tt...walk..its nyte tyme..so must enjoy the nyte breeze..coughing all the wae back home..had a headache..vomitted near a car..lols..SORRIE!..sick again..now i guess lyke 2 weeks..aww..need a rest!..was under stress for a week..but now im fine..!;)

reached home..headed to the toilet straight..vomitted again..all the drinks tt i drank was out!..smelled of coke!..hahahs..and the gas..eww..get to the nose..den gt a nose block..WTF!..took a towel had my shower..headache came again..ate my pills..uggh! pills..!~

didnt slept well ytd nyte..coughing is the onlie thing tt came out..smoked again in the bedroom..wif sis..she had one stick and i had mine..after tt..headache came again..uggh!!!sick sick sick!WTH!..went to the toilet and vomitted again..his tyme the taste of the pills i took..eww...bluek!..so not tasty!..lols..

smsed ibu(veron) asking if she asleep..well she's not..sms sms sms..den fell asleep..

woke up in the mornin like i guess 9 plus..cough again..cant go back to sleep..so music accompany me..cause when i woke up..there's no one at home..sibs went to sch, parents went to work..tts my dae..everydae..smoked a stick..tts the onlie thing i can do..didnt had breakfast..no appetite at all to eat..had my shower and took another stick..get change and headed out to my grandma's place..she was alone at home..so being the gd gerl..i accompany her..well i guess everyday..cause my sch holidaes started.!..online..

chatted wif hym!:

im zambri !! says:
oits!!

im zambri !! says:
((:

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
yes2!=)

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
saw u ytd..

im zambri !! says:
me tOO..

im zambri !! says:
((:

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
lols..=)

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
eh nvr werk?

im zambri !! says:
NOpe..

im zambri !! says:
u le?

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
this fri and sat..planned to go my sjab acts..but kener kejer..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
asl lak tk kejer..off?

im zambri !! says:
icic..

im zambri !! says:
No laa..

im zambri !! says:
gt smth on tadae..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
ouh...eh..check up?

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
went for it?

im zambri !! says:
yuup...

im zambri !! says:
but ...

im zambri !! says:
need further test..

im zambri !! says:
haha

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
further test? still serious?

im zambri !! says:
ya lor..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
omg..confirm tk rest..

im zambri !! says:
rest laa...

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
den stress..if ure rest wont be tt serious wad..

im zambri !! says:
i dUnOe laa..

im zambri !! says:
i need to go poly first..for my next check Up...

im zambri !! says:
then if serious.. HOspital!! ((;

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
omg...hospital..and wads wif the ((;?

im zambri !! says:
happy laa..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
dah serious bleh senyum2..

im zambri !! says:
takder org kacau..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
lols..i will..!hahahs..=)

im zambri !! says:
hahaha

im zambri !! says:
btw...

im zambri !! says:
BTW..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
yeah?

im zambri !! says:
u miss WHo ??

im zambri !! says:
hahaha

im zambri !! says:
((;

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
whu else?

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
and whu thinks ure stupid?

im zambri !! says:
u think tt PM refers to you???

im zambri !! says:
no laa...

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
no..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
i dont cepat terase..

im zambri !! says:
then whats this?? ''and whu thinks ure stupid?'' huh!?

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
i was just asking..whu thinks ure stupid la..

im zambri !! says:
my ex laa..

im zambri !! says:
i mean(cancelled the name)

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
y?

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
wad happen?

im zambri !! says:
she thinks that i nak layan dier lagi...!?

im zambri !! says:
hahaha

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
LOL!

im zambri !! says:
da malas uhh nak layan bdk2 nie..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
i c..adeq2...

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
=)

im zambri !! says:
hahahs!! ((:

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
smlm u frm where den come to compass?

im zambri !! says:
jamming..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
i sey! jamming...

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
i long tyme nvr go jamming..miss my keyboard!

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
lols

im zambri !! says:
yaa..

im zambri !! says:
BTW..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
?

im zambri !! says:
im joining anugerah BAnD tau..

im zambri !! says:
hahaha

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
cey2..!

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
u knoe anis? yanto's fren?

im zambri !! says:
yaa..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
he join in too..

im zambri !! says:
he also joining ryte?

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
yeap!..

im zambri !! says:
i kNow..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
aniwaes when is the audition?

im zambri !! says:
this SAT..

im zambri !! says:
at junc 8

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
ok..whu's wif u?

im zambri !! says:
u mean my band..?

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
ya la..

im zambri !! says:
me.. and my frens laa..

im zambri !! says:
they are at CP ytd..

im zambri !! says:
hahaha

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
u mean the bunch of dem?

im zambri !! says:
% of us..

im zambri !! says:
5 of us.

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
i hate (name cancelled off)

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
ok.

im zambri !! says:
haha

im zambri !! says:
KNpe?

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
sombong nk mampos..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
he wnt out out ytd to my area..and looked at me and my fren mcm nk telan..wads wif the sarcastic face..

im zambri !! says:
HaHAHA..

im zambri !! says:
ikonw..

im zambri !! says:
know..

im zambri !! says:
they ask me to walk there..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
DEN?

im zambri !! says:
but i dont want..

im zambri !! says:
cause i know..

im zambri !! says:
they will diasturb me..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
like wadever for?

im zambri !! says:
they know that i once attached to u..

im zambri !! says:
and they will make fun of it..

im zambri !! says:
understand?

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
so..?

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
tell dem fuck off..

im zambri !! says:
ISTY!!?

im zambri !! says:
knpe nie...

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
?

im zambri !! says:
dun be so mad OK..

im zambri !! says:
pl;s

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
no im not..but tts so CHILDISH ACT of dem..

im zambri !! says:
yaaa..

im zambri !! says:
tts them but nOt me..

im zambri !! says:
((:

im zambri !! says:
i gtg laa..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
hahahs..lucky u..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
ok..=)

im zambri !! says:
nak amek IDRis frm sch..

im zambri !! says:
haha

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
lols..

im zambri !! says:
((;

im zambri !! says:
chat again ok..

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
ok...ok..=)

im zambri !! says:
bye((:

::NIne in the afternoon. says:
bye=)

end of conversation!

chatted wif zainol, fizah and faszley too..had fun wif dem..chatting:)

ok now i gt to wait for this daes:

-class chalet(7-9 april)
-werk(this fri and sat)
-sch to reopen(14 april)
-wished to get back to hym!(dunnoe when.but hopefully it come)

daes move faster! move as fast as u can!please..!

ok..miss u guys alots darls..and especially hym!miss u dearly darl!

see u guys soon..love u!


i want my baby!



i want my baby!



i want my baby!



i want my baby!




here he is..TAA DAA!(i gv the gender male..hahahss!)
im buyin it soon..hahahs..money is coming on my wae!hahahs








well hell ya..i forget!..

happy belated bdae to u THOMAS..(syafiq) -did i spelled ur name correctly?

cheers'


hahahs..i was happie again!

this tyme i saw hym..

i was waiting for a bus otw to my grandma house..

waited for the bus for lyke 5 mins infront of monfort junior..his blk was ryte opposite the sch..

saw hym walking under the blk..he was tolking to the phone..i was hoping he call me and said" hey i saw u!" but nvr..hahahs. he went to the other end of the blk..well i guess he wan to meet his fren..

took the bus and arrive at my grandma house around 6 mins later.

smsed hym when im still on the bus..

asking..

"are you working todae? cause i tot i saw u walking jus now in white tee.:)"

he replied..

"nope...fetching my bro frm sch..u at where?"

i replied..

"so u wore white tee la jus now. i was at the monfort bus stop."

he replied..

"yuup..oh i see..gg to ur grandma house?"

i replied..

"yeap!:) no wonder looks familiar."

he replied..

"haha.. ok.. take care:)"

i replied..

"ya sure! u too(:"

and it ended there...hahahs..

i guess i was over the sun todae..lols..

still caughing..sick since last week..when is this sick thing is going to over!!

promised nurul sayang i'll be ok by the tyme our class chalet..i promise!

me: i promise u by the tyme our class chalet i'll be fine..no more sickly isty and i'll be forgetting the sad memories..

nurul: its too long..

me: hello! it takes tyme to recover sayang!

nurul: ouh ya ya.hahahs:)

lols..she's the bubbly one..hahas..

miss everyone alots..

:veron ibu, nurul adeq sayang, the bros..(fai and fadhil indie)..can i still call fadhil OI! PAPA?
:my sons..(u knoe whu guys are darls..)

miss ya guys alot..and of course miss u alot darl..

still missing u!


i was over the moon ytd nyte..hahas

well.he called me ytd nyte at 9pm. i was lyke eh..he call..!

gt a missed call frm him in the first place but didnt hear the ring tone..the 2nd tyme he called..i ran to the room and grab the phone, look at the lcd screen and saw his name..i was happie..verie happie.

anwered the phone wif my sicklie voice..

me: HELLO?
-line was cut off as his pp8 was low..
continued..
hym: isty..ure ok?
me: yeap..actuallie not..
hym: well dont be stress..
me: how did u knoe im under stress?
hym: ur sis told me..well take care u knoe..dont think about it too much
me: ya ya sure sure..
hym: well..if u need anyhting u can just contact me
me: ya ya sure sure..
hym: so ok la til here..take care.
me: yeap..sure sure..u too take care!..

and..hang up the phone..it lasted around 40secs.?

hahahs..

msg hym tt nyte b4 went to bed..

"hey! thx for calling me. aniwaes u too, take care. rmb ur 3rd check up. dont post phone it.:)"

and he replied...

"hey!:) thx for ur care and concern again..Wahh, still care for me uhh.. hahas! take care and study hard! enjoy ur holidaes...nytez!"

and i replied..

"hahas. ur welcome!(: of course i am. and ya i will study hard. nytes!(:"

and it ended there..went to bed..hahahs..

but eventually nvr..

disturbing my sis at nyte while she was tolking to the phone wif her bf!.

the phone vibrated..and i tot whu la call.

it was private number..i tot it was hym..hahahs!..was like wanting hym to call..

its 1230 am..answered the phone..and it was aidil..

he wanted to sae he was syed's cousin..well u cant lie to me..i knoe ur voice..

talking to hym for around 16 mins at first..den he hang up as he wanted to call his fren..

called again later around 5 mins later..talk to me for around 26 mins and 23 secs

he was my best budds..so he is lyke the trusted fren..known hym since sec 2..but nvr met hym b4 til he was in the same class as me now!..hahahs..and i was lyke ouh so this is aidil..hahahs..

asked aidil wad he was doin at nyte and y me he call..when tt tyme we're suppose to be sleeping..he said he cant sleep and was smsing his fren and he was trying his luck to call his frens..and he was lucky tt i wasnt sleeping. and he asked me back the same ques tt i asked hym. and i said i cant sleep and im sick!..

hahahs..he tot i was crying. actually i was trying hard to sniff..cause nose block..and my voice change and tts made hym tot i was crying..hahahs.. he hate to hear gerls cry.lols..and i told hym tt i didnt cry! im sick!..

he was lyke doin multiple task..he was tolking to me on the phone..sms, tv was on at the back..can hear the background(MAN UTD VS LIVERPOOL-MAN UTD WON!!)played some games(golf on his phone)..so its lyke 4 things he do in one..talking, tv, game and sms.

tolking to hym was fun..and shared my probs wif hym. he shared his too..

hahahs..best budd ever..or shld i sae..bestest son!

almost everyday he went back home wif me..i mean took the same bus and stop at hougang..lyke u knoe accompany me for the 45 mins long journey!..hahahs..wif hym around is fun..non-stop laughter..serious..

hahahs..ok til here..

well still hoping he call me again..or sms me!

love hym lots no matter we're nt tgt animore..


well..its over now..

he said this to me on our 2 mth..(180308)

"isty, zambri wanna sae something.and i couldnt sae it thru phone cause its hard for me to sae this out. and please, dun be sad or scold me. i knoe these days i always nvr give u my full attn..i failed to be a gd bf to you..i dunno if i could make u happy again..but i think its really too early for me to hjv a relationship wif you.. i know i kept saying when? for you to say YES..bt don think diff k..i like you and love you.thats y i kept asking..and i dunno if we cld see each other again.. okay..honestly, i have to ask u this. can we just be frens for now? you know that love needs full sacrifice and sincerity..i need to really3 think that i really2 like you and love u.im sorry isty..=("

and this is wad i reply hym,

"i knew it aniwae. NO wonder i felt uneasy. and u told me onlie todae and NOW!..why didnt u tell me frm the start? and it reallie made me..i dunno la. i wont b angry bt im sad.uve made me cried. frm de beginning i knew this thing will happen even though we said this thing wont happen. ya sure we'll be frens. and ya i do like u and love you too. its okay.yeap love really needs alot of sacrifices. bt jus letting u knoe, u made me felt to accept guys back. yeap satays as frens. so i guess theres no more 180108.and de dae i want to spent tyme wif you on de 7th april is gone.nvm, i understand and accept it aniwae. always rmb the happy thots wif u. TC and dont tired urself when werking. make sure u go for ur 3rd check up. dont postphone it.and i guess i hear ur voice for the last tyme like i guess jus now? ani probs u can alwaes tell me. im alwaes readie to hear it and help you. TC aites.:) dont worry im nt angry bt still love you..frens?:)"

i cry and cry and cry..

i'll wait!


had my shooting ytd..but i dont hv tt much fun..cause i was kinda sad..



cried the whole nyte thinking of his conditions..



smsed hym ytd..told hym how i felt..



well today 2 mth anni..



this is wad i told hym...



"i guess i shld tell u this now instead of tmr. since u told me tt u have HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE, i started to worried about u. bt tts nt the onlie thing. since den, ive been waiting for ur calls. i knoe i shldnt wait. bt now u dah jarang call me at de usual tyme: 10+. u knoe wad? i really miss u tau. i guess uve read my blog and know how i felt. i dont ask u to call me or msg me every now and than. bt at least call me at our usual tyme. if cnnt call during tt tyme, gv me a miss call or msg me and i will call u. when uve read this, dont think too much of it and worry bout it. i still care for u and love u..really i am. and now ure werking i guess u'll be busy. msg me when ure having ur break to at least knoe tt ure find at werk.take care of urself during ur werking hours. rmb, dont tired urself. take care:) and one more thing go for ur 3rd check up. dont post phone it again.:).. "


and this what he replied me..

"my dear! im sorry if i did tt to u..im sorry!!okay... im totally wrong to u and i did many things that hurt you...later at nite i try to call u and tell u the truth okay.. im really sorry isty:( "


i was lyke fucking sad..!


ytd was raining the whole day..

coughing too..having sore throat..

now still coughing..ugghh!!*coughing*

went to the temp swimming complex wif the rest..

cause ibu(veron) wants to swim..the guys too were there..eventhough they swam after PE lesson.

wanted to swim..but im sick!

took photos of dem when they were in the pool..hahahs..i knoe they had fun!

i wish i could swim..but cnnt.

he called me ytd when i was at the swimming complex..

asked where am i..and told i was at temp swimming complex. he asked if im goin to swim..(he knoes im sick..) and i said..no..siao..sick want to swim..hahahs..

he told me hes goin out..onlie under the blk..hahas..meet his frens for a while..

i tot he was goin out somewhere far..when it was raining..
told hym i missed hym b4 hanging up the phone..

i miss u..!


weather today..RAINING.!!!

mood:..very sick


kinda sick now..had sore throat since ytd nyte..ugghh!

pain pain pain!

coughing the whole dae..

cant sleep at nyte cause of this sore throat..AND was thinkin of his condition..(did he rest well enough?)

ate onlie plain rice wif chicken franks onlie ..wif no gravy..no appetite at all..

he called ytd..finallie get to hear his voice..yeah!..miss hym lots.

asked hym to read my blog..well..there msgs for hym to read..worried bout hym though..!

i love hym..love love love..

later gonna text hym durin break..(if i can rmb..ibu help remind me..thx!)

told ibu(veronica) bout hym..she was lyke OMG..! tell hym to rest well..

well i did ibu..i did..hope he does it..

nurul adeq was shocked too..

and now its my trun to turn sick..ugghh! cause of the rain i guess..ibu asked me nt to worried bout it..well i tried ibu..i tried..

nurul adeq wants me to rest too..cause i gt sick because of her..! shared her food when she was sick..hahahs..cause of rain too i guess..and went home late..when the temperature out there was cold..BRRR!!..i guess i sick cause of it..

i guess i got to do something for myself:

1.dont get too worried bout it..
2.rest well..cause im sick!
3.think of happie thots too(nurul adeq been asking me to do tt)
4.try to let go of everything..if can..

gonna have fun todae..i'll try to change the mood..trying!

well..mood for today..:

very sick..sore throat..go away..pls..

AND AND I LOVE HYM..AND MISS HYM DEARLIE..!


heys..

just letting to those outside whu dont knoe me..and to those wo knoes me but dunno the new me..:)heh!..

well..

i changed alot..heh..!

lyke how..

to my pri schmates frens(who knoe me la):
-rebonded my hair..
-not the selenger type of gerl..NO MORE..
-started smoking since i enter sec sch lyfe..heh!
-damn loud now..(a parade commander though)
-rebelious enough!
-rough though
-happillie attached

to my sec sch frens( who knoe me and dunno):
-same things as above mentioned
-dont think im the minah outside..!
-a friend who u can be trusted..(i guess)..well ya..cause i do kept secrets well..!heh!
-well..nt much..i'll update soon.for the new one..

and to all of u my frens!

i damn FUCKING MISS YOU!


kinda worried now..hmm..

now wad..

he called me and told me he have high blood pressure..(HBP)

NO NO NO!

he went to his NS check up for the 2nd tyme..i guess is on the fri..when i was havin MR BOI'S movie shooting.

he called me up in the afternoon telling me he was at his sec sch for NCC..so iwas lyke ok..at least i knoe where goes..

den at nyte..he asked me if my bro gt tell me anything..and i said no..so he told me tt he gt HBP..!

and i was lyke shouted WHAT!.NO WAY!..it cant be real..den he said ya..its for real..

he gt to go for the 3rd checkup soon..i dont knoe when..

if his HBP nvr goes down..he gt to go to hospital..ahh!!...

to u my syg,

1. dont stress up urself

2.think of happie thots(no negatives thinking)

3.stay happie always(pls!)

4.dont get so angry easily..(i knoe u gt 2 youngers sibs at home..they're just kids..they knoe nth)

5.call me if u can..

ibu(veron darl) told me to tell u tt avoid oily foods..

nurul adeq told me to tell u to think of happie thots..

pls do as they and wad i sae..

if u love me pls..as i too love u..

please!

i was fucking sad ytd nyte...cause i msged hym and he nvr reply..

he called me once in the afternoon..

i cried at nyte..

den he called me again at nyte..

with the sad voice i answered the call..

he asked me what happened thrice..no..i think four tymes..but i said nth..nth is wrong.but there is..i was lyke damn fucking miss hym..and he nvr reply my msgs..

i dont wan to tell hym tt la..it jus makes hym worried bout it..

i love hym lots lots lots lots..LOTS LOTS LOTS..!!!

Each tyme he tolk on the phone i cried cause i finallie get to hear his voice..finallie..!

now still at sch..msged hym telling tt i will msg hym when i get back home..and i will be goin home late todae..as lessons may drag..and i told hym tt i syg hym lots and missed hym lots lots lots

now he cnt use the phone too long and too much..cause he get the fucking hard scoldings frm his dad..aww...sad..cant hear his voice tt long animore..

I MISS HYM DEARLIE


i miss hym i miss hym i miss hym i miss hym!...

miss miss miss miss miss hym alots..lolts lots lots..!

damn FUCKING MISS HYM!


had a busy weekend..well i think i shld sae 2 weeks..had to skip cca for my movie shooting at toa payoh lorong 1..hahahs.. cool place ever.. its a former whitley sec sch..so its kinda dirty and spookie la..eeee...the toilets were all smellie and dirty..and SPOOKY!..lols..

the shooting started on fri morning at 7 am..hahahs..so the whole DAVP students (both A nad B class of year 1) were nt in sch..as we gt to go tothe shooting..hahahs..finallie no sch..lols..

went there again ytd at 11 am..(well.we went there late..lyke i think around 11 45ams..?)..had fun..but this tyme the one and onlie A class were there..NO B class at all..but mostlie is my class hahahs..and the MELAYUs onlie and few Chineses..hahahs..had a great fun..lols..

mr boi were proud of us..and well..of course i heard tt they are trying to push us the A class to be the next DIRECTORS..!hahahs..Woot Woot Woot!

goin there again next week on the 7 march and maybe on the sat and sun..ahahhs..shooting at the palyground this tyme but same venue..ahahsh..great..lols..gonna hv fun!..

even some dont even understand tt this course is damn fucking busy..u gt no tyme for anione..but onlie the crews..yeap!..serious here..its true enough..the lecturers warned us to be careful of this course..as it may takes all ur free tyme..and ya..its true!!! TRUE TRUE TRUE!.. sorrie to those i nvr had a tyme to spent tyme with..reallie i am..

but the onlie thing is tt u can learn alot of things which those ppl out there dont knoe..those whu look down on ITE students..well hell ya ure so wrong..we are the best..and have the more knowledge than those outside..NO OFFENCE! its the TRUTH the FACT the REAL!