this counted as the third post of the day! im done with everything today. still in school, waiting for my disc to get done with the burning. lmbt uh! ahh!

restless since saturday night. cause PMS! now still restless. worried of whats gonna be my grade for studio production and audio production. i dont want to retain for another 6 months just to get audio done. wtf! now what?

holidays is just giving me to taste some boredom. ahh! working and preparing slides for pitching when school reopen. and for your info paperworks for mini project is not done yet. its suppose to hand it in today but i forgot to do it and print it. and now, its too late. too late. sial la. i fail for paperwork. what a producer for studio. ahh!

later on meeting aishah over at town. uh yelah lepas school gi sane. sial la. ahh!

my day today started of with naggings from mum. nice one mum. me like. bright up my day with your smile at least. but no. you nagged at me about money.

mum: where's your 1.2k?
me: all gone
mum: what did you do to it?
me: nothing. i used it when i got no money.
mum: you dont lied to me. i know you've been spending alot to ciggs and maybe some other else.
me: well, at least its my money mum.
mum: and where's your pay?
me: its cheque, i havent got it yet. chill uh.
mum: now what? dont tell me you're late for school
me: yes i am. and im going now. bye.

what the hell. i wasnt really having a good mood for all that shits. and you giving me that early in the morning. oh come on! i slept at 3 am yesterday night. worried about paperworks. woke up and i got that kind of wake up call for going to school. thanks alot mum. i hate it when you're throwing your anger to me. ya lah, cause im the only person left in house what dah tk de org laen nk buang die punye kemarahan, die cmpk kt aku. i like. uh, mum mum.

dad been giving alot of problems. first, never even thinks about us. second been lying to alot of people. i labelled you as a LIER! LIER LIER PANTS ON FIRE! ahhh! if i ever see you, i swear im not gonna say, "hi dad!" cause to me, dad is gone. gone forever. boo!

hate me by all means. stare me by all means. kill me by all means. complain about me? go ahead cause you're making me popular. thank you! i gave you a smile in school and a stare is what i got? thank you. i like. goodness!

have not been eating well. i dont know why. saw food, and makes me wanna puke. yesterday's cooking was boring. and guess what. i had porridge instead. that would be nice. nurul have been notice my eating problem and tegor that i lost alot of weight and asked if i had a proper meal. and i said no. ahh!

this coming saturday, ahh! its gonna be secret till the day has come. sorry aishah!
goodluck to azhar for job interview on that saturday. and goodluck to me or working full shift. ahh!




to you, when am i gonna meet you again.? prepaid dah low. and i dont want to disturb you. cause you might be doing your own stuffs. i really miss you alot.

to classmates. happy holidays. enjoy it. any planning to go out together? bbq maybe? then i can enjoy flying kite. ahahah.

can anyone please BRIGHT UP MY DAY TODAY. please! ahh!