FINALLY, ITS OVER.

My kite has flown away freely, and yeah the boat is now stable and its ready to go to other journey. woohoo!. exams next, and thats it. GANTONG LANYARD. BUANG BAJU! (*HANG THE LANYARD, THROW AWAY SCH UNI!) finally, grad!

GRADUATION DAY HERE I COME! CANCEL OFF MY NAME IN THAT SCHOOL! UGGH!


tmr is gonna be another day. a day for me to get ready to fuck mentally. my group will definitely come unprepared for everything. just gonna wait to be screwed up! gosh!

another night over at grandmama's crib. gosh.
what am i suppose to do?
if im going to stay another night here, i won't get any cash for myself to top up my prepaid and to buy my ciggies.! uggh!
another sleepless night! GOSH!

only tmr left for the dooms day to be over! yes! like finally i can enjoy. uggh!.
few more hours to go and i will get very very nervous!

making myself sick is like a no use for me. i will be making my closest one worried. lagi lagi andy. (:

now the thing is, i want all of the pop'a'loc people to like please bright up my day again! just once more until tmr is over.

muhd nabil thaqif is the name♥♥. did i just said out his full name? hahahs.
thanks to him that my laughter is continued when i get back home yesterday night.
sorry to make you worried when i said i wanted to text you when im on my way home. prepaid low. but thanks for the surprise call!. nice one(:

now i guess, I ♥ YOU! (:

OKAY BYE!


i swear i had fun.
i had a great laughter. finally i got to see the rest of them that i loved so much!.

it was fizah's birthday. and i gave her the present. i keep on bugging her to open it up. cause i want to see the reaction that she going to have. lols. even loco wants her to open it up. (: i hope you had fun.

went to far east to have lunch. and after that went to orchard central to go to the roof, but eventually it was closed. lols. no plans, went to dhauby ghaut. the guys went to play L4D. lols. while me and fizah went to ljs to have dinner. and window shopping! hahahs. when i have my pay next week, i will buy the pants or the sleeveless jacket with the hood. yeah!

went to the toilet to have pictures taken. hahahs. and please love, upload!
when we go back to meet the guys at the lan area, just nice that they finish playing the games.

end the night with zam's crazy acts. hahahs. i love it alot. been so stress lately and i need some great laughter. hahahas. thanks guys(:

CAN WE MEET AGAIN?! HUGGS!


eventually, i am going to sleep at this hour. which is like 6 am! like wtf.

nights to all. i want winter melon for refreshments! (:

Fucked M8!




IT'S FIZAH LULLABY!
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU BEST FRIEND! i can't wait to meet you and pass you the birthday present that i got for you! hahahs.

in another hand,

yes uh!. i am so fucking happy to the max! hahahs. thanks to you la! i am not in the right mood to have any convo but eventually, this 2 guys light me up! hahahs. thanks to hical and thaqif! heheh.

thanks to hical, that i can have a good fucking laugh. i am so tired of paperworks, craps and shits. he with his never ending lame jokes and craps havs been always making me laugh!. hahahs. thanks dude!

thanks to thaqif that i have the mood to talk. you and your sleep tk abes. lols. thank you so much!

counting down to M8 deadline is just a another thing that i dont want to know. what else can i do. except for waiting for the fucking script and shotlist. i think because of this, i am so sleeping late almost everyday. i am not gonna have another nice sleep until this stupid M8 is over. fuck the shit up M8, you just SUCKS!

in order for me to have a peace mind, well, i guess im going shopping! going to buy the boot that i want from aldo. its really fucking nice.
for what i know and care, i am going to celebrate my dear best friend's birthday! I LOVE YOU TO THE MAX!

okay bye!


oh oh! deadline is coming nearer.
3 more fucking days to come. oh god! when the hell am i going to receive my new script and new shotlist! uggh! asap please. i need before monday. or else the production booklet wont be ready at all. uggh!.

i am not going to let the lecturers fuck us up like last time. uggh. sick and tired of hearing those fucked up things. now i just wished that my group is doing better than the others. hoping ajer.

marketing is done. i guess there is still needed of some re-print of the post cards. there's only 3 and that is so little. i dont think the lecturer likes it. the cd cover, print a different one then the poster? i think so. oh yeah, coffee table, syed, did you forget to print it.?

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO GHUFRAN JASNI.!

OKAY BYE!, OFF TO DO MY WORK.


what more am i supposed to do. i've moved on with my love life. and now it came some other stuffs that i dont want to hear about or see.

family:

dad, is just being a BIGGEST LOSER! BIGGEST JERK OF ALL. how i wished that he's so responsible towards every single things. why is he doing this to us.?

mom, she just dont understand me at all. i thought she does. but eventually, NO! i've been trying hard to pay off my phone bills. i have to help myself. and im trying hard. eventually, mom, doesn't help me out by a little. all she can do is naggings. if the naggings can help me pay out the bils, i dont mind at all to listen to it everyday. even when im going off to work, she thought im goiing to hang out with friends. oh, come on mom!

siblings, they're just doing their on shits. who doesn't care at all about me. but i dont mind. i dont need their help all the time. sometimes i am so stressed out by them. what they always do is think of themselves, not others. they're just unlike me.

overall, i don't mind, i know what im doing.

school:

its just a boredom for me. everyday, or should i say 3 or 2 days a week f school is just doing paper works and editing for final year project. which is like a FUCKED UP thing for me. having a group with 3 strong ones is like doing it alone. me, goofy and fai is like doing all stuffs ourselves. where are the others. i understand that the editor cant do mush as some of the footages is with our dear director. and me, have to rush then up for new things, like the new script, new shotlist, particulars of the new cast and i need updates. re-shoot? i dont get any news as where and when and what time and all. marketing, where the hell id the poster, dvd cover and all? WHERE THE FUCK IS THAT? my paper works wont be done until i got all the stuffs that is needed. WHERE IS IT GUYS? oh come on, you guys can't help yourselves if you guys wont help out with each other. OH GOD!

upcoming events, i have to do some stuffs with fina for the GO GREEN GIG. i dont have any confidence for all that. well, i guess it wont happen. HELP! is all i can shout now. UGGH! is all i can give out. 1 more week to go to prepare myself with the critics of all the lecturers, one more week to go to prepare myself for the GO GREEN GIG. WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING?!

friends:

nurul, is on the same boat as me. both of us are going to get the same shit. well, we are waiting for DEADLINES! and GRADUATION! when the hell is all this shits is going to end?

POP'A'LOC, is my new bunch of friends. with andy, choco, loco, fizah, amy, nizam, hakim, remy, maleek and all of them around me, i will be at ease. i know they can't help me much but they can help me by giving me smile for the whole day. laughter with them for a day is never enough. i want all the jokes for myself the whole day. i know they're not gonna be with me 24/7, but the memories with them will always be forever! i repeat FOREVER. what i wished for now is that, i want to see the smiles and laughter of andy, the crappy jokes from nizam and loco, the lame sarcasms and jokes from hakim and remy, the legong face of choco and fizah. i want all of them NOW! for what i know later on at night i will be meeting them and i want to hide this stress-ness from them. i dont want them to know that im so fucked up especially to andy my bro. if he knows that im stress, he gonna ask alot of ques which i dont want to let it out. cause if i did, i will be back in the thinking mood. and i will treat any places that i sat as my thinking place or chair.

birthdays:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR BEST FRIEND- L.O.C.O! you turned 19 today!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR FRIEND - RAFFI a.k.a BLACK APOCALYPTO you turned 18 yesterday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR CLOSE FRIEND - TIKUUS DINAH! you turned 18 on the friday the 13!
soon its gonna be GOOFY, FIZAH LULLABY, TIMOTHY AND it goes on and on.

cant wait for mine. next month! hahahs. okay that bring up my spirit a bit.
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okay gtg! of to paperworks! uggh, BORING!!!!!!

LABELS: sing me a song of stopping disasters!
MOOD: WHAT THE FUCK!?


sorry for not updating. i know its kinda the same thing always. but this time, and this fucking month, i dont really enjoyed myself only until i met the popaloc.

last month was a shit! a fucking shitty month for me. i lost my both phones, mum doesnt know about it yet, i dont have enough money to support myself, da is being the biggest jerk ever. uggh! how i wish that the leaves outside can be collected and change it to cash!

working hard to earn some cash eventually it will go down the drain. i have to pay my fucking 600 bucks phone bills. like wtf. spen my money to that.oh no! sial la.

my life now is becoming complicated. complicated to understand. only a few of my closest friends understands me.

the only things that i do now is that, wait for my mum's nagging, wait for disaster to comes, waiting for deadline of m8( which is like im going to do it so last minute), wait for just people to come near me and kill me.

grandma have left us. especially me ans sis. she leaft us with alot of memories that i cannot repay her and it's so uncountable. i missed her alot. now each day when i ate her favourite fries from mcdonalds, i will remember her. drinking black coffee, i will remember her. cooked fried rice using her style, i will rememeber her. evrything that i did, i will always rememeber her. her face, her smile, her laughter, her slap, her nags, is still in head. grandma, may you rest in peace. amin.

no the only thing to do is to chill and relax. i am so tense! and need some proper relaxation! uggh!

LABELS: DISASTER WILL NEVER END!
MOOD: SLEEPY AND TIRED