i ran away frm home on the friday night. i wasnt happy to what had happen in the house. after 2 days getting home frm sentosa the wild incident flash back in my memory. cant sleep on wed. tt thing just cant stop bothering me. thursday is the worst one ever. gt back home after the crew outing frm pasir ris with rezza and the gangs. reach home quite late but was fine. cant sleep..the thing controlled me. wtf!. i wasnt really happy with what had happened in the house..how i wished i can just say this FUCK OFF!!. serious shit..wanting to kill me..controlling me..i was like OMG stop it!. wanted to tell mum. but im scared. im so scared to tell her. she will asked alot of things if i told her tt.. now came my period..fuck!..spoilt..

didnt tell my mum where were i on tt friday night. i was outside with fizah, asari and zahfir. i told them i dont want to go home.so fizah offered me to overnight at her place..i was relieved..happy..and ya safe at the same tyme..didnt tell HYM where am i. he asked alot of things but i nvr reply to his questions..instead i make up story.. he asked where am i and i said i was outside (but i was at fizah's place) i lied!..sorry love!.

talked to fai abt this..and he was worried..he asked me to do alot of things..but i said this : "fai. im having my period now. so i cant do much." and both of us were like fuck!..spoilt.!. he called amie up and i smsed amie..told hym everything..and he was worried too..

tmr fai gonna ask all of us who went to sentosa tt night when are we free..ugghhh!!!...hv to wait my period finish first fai..ughhh!!!..

tonight i just do wadever i can..hv to clean up myself withthe so called holy water and den hv to pray hard..and ya put on my headphone and switch on my prayers.!..

lets pray hard all of us gonna be fine. pls..

and ya chat with HYM over at MSN..nice chat uh.!..=D