OKAY LIKE WTF!

i've been not sleeping! like why? oh no! and yesterday night, 2 hours of sleeping. have to wake up at 6 am to get myself awake before my shoot. heh! was sick, sore throat, and soon what, fever? body been aching for 2 days.

even when, i'm sick i can't stay at home. i have to go out. and thats really make my whole body so weak. weak to understand what people is talking to you. now, i suppose to go to bed after my shoots ends fucking early due to the rain. and here i am sitting in front of the com, BLOGGING and UPLOADING photos of our dear mr director - GHUFRAN JASNI. uploaded over at facebook. heh.

walked under the rain, its like a FINALLY! feeling for me. got wet, not really wet. now i guess, i'm going to be sick!

was going to knocked out at 12 plus, when my dear mr vampiee called. and after hanging up, i knocked out. few minutes later, aishah called to meet her up. and thats really at 130 am. i woke up and went down to meet her. she needs someone to talk to. and i accompanied her. while waiting for her, mr vampiee called up again.

love, that night, the whole day, seriously, we don't have a proper conversation. even though we talked on the phone in the afternoon and later at night. i never meet you for the whole day, but i wished i could. i wasn't in the perfect mood and i need you. and yeah, eventually i went blank. still, i know i'm tired, i'm being stubborn. make myself more tired and complained. i know i shouldn't. on my way home, i tried my luck to call you and eventually you're not asleep. finally, i got a proper conversation and get to hear your voices, your irritating noises. i missed all that. i am.

now, what should i do? can i go for a drink? obviously is a NO. a BIG FUCKING NO!. should i just go and sleep? OBVIOUSLY I NEED ONE. i don't have a proper one since wednesday. and now its been going 4 days of not sleeping well, and not eating well. even the food that i ate over at our location at seng kang, i can't finish it up. even though its my favourite kuih teow goreng. that should be a YUMMY! but..YUCK! for me. i wanted to throw up but i can't.

smoking, listen to the music till late night, playing phone games till late night and talking to you is my only medicine. a proper medicine? huh? aper tu?

next week, the whole week, i guess i will be sleeping over at grandma's place. cause thats the only place i can have some peace for doing my work. or maybe after school re-open?

okay, now what i need is that, SLEEP. A FUCKING SLEEP. UGGH! AND VOICE OF YOURS.

I AM SO, SO, SO, NOT GOING TO ENJOY MY OCTOBER MONTH! ITS A DISASTER! DISASTER FOR M8, DISASTER FOR STRESS-NESS FOR THIS STUPID FUCKING AND THE SUCKIEST M8! CB! BILER NI M8 NK ABES! UGGH!

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE SING ME A SONG THAT I CAN GO TO SLEEP IN PEACE AND CAST ME A SPELL THAT I CAN OVERCOME THIS STUPID STRESS-NESS FOR M8!

*NURUL LOVE, BE STRONG. DON'T WORRY I WILL TRY TO GET FOR YOU THE EQUIPMENTS FROM SCHOOL. I'LL TALK TO GOOFY AND FAI AGAIN FOR THAT. THE STUPID SHIT OF M8 HAVE TO GO ON, NO MATTER WHAT. I LOVE YOU TORTOISE!

LABELS: WTF!
MOOD: KNOCKED OUT SOON! KNOCKED ME ON MY HEAD HARD! AND CRAVING FOR A DRINK! CAN I? OBVIOUSLY IS A BIG FUCKING NO!

UGGH! ISTY PURWANTY, WAKE UP LA CB!