what more am i supposed to do. i've moved on with my love life. and now it came some other stuffs that i dont want to hear about or see.

family:

dad, is just being a BIGGEST LOSER! BIGGEST JERK OF ALL. how i wished that he's so responsible towards every single things. why is he doing this to us.?

mom, she just dont understand me at all. i thought she does. but eventually, NO! i've been trying hard to pay off my phone bills. i have to help myself. and im trying hard. eventually, mom, doesn't help me out by a little. all she can do is naggings. if the naggings can help me pay out the bils, i dont mind at all to listen to it everyday. even when im going off to work, she thought im goiing to hang out with friends. oh, come on mom!

siblings, they're just doing their on shits. who doesn't care at all about me. but i dont mind. i dont need their help all the time. sometimes i am so stressed out by them. what they always do is think of themselves, not others. they're just unlike me.

overall, i don't mind, i know what im doing.

school:

its just a boredom for me. everyday, or should i say 3 or 2 days a week f school is just doing paper works and editing for final year project. which is like a FUCKED UP thing for me. having a group with 3 strong ones is like doing it alone. me, goofy and fai is like doing all stuffs ourselves. where are the others. i understand that the editor cant do mush as some of the footages is with our dear director. and me, have to rush then up for new things, like the new script, new shotlist, particulars of the new cast and i need updates. re-shoot? i dont get any news as where and when and what time and all. marketing, where the hell id the poster, dvd cover and all? WHERE THE FUCK IS THAT? my paper works wont be done until i got all the stuffs that is needed. WHERE IS IT GUYS? oh come on, you guys can't help yourselves if you guys wont help out with each other. OH GOD!

upcoming events, i have to do some stuffs with fina for the GO GREEN GIG. i dont have any confidence for all that. well, i guess it wont happen. HELP! is all i can shout now. UGGH! is all i can give out. 1 more week to go to prepare myself with the critics of all the lecturers, one more week to go to prepare myself for the GO GREEN GIG. WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING?!

friends:

nurul, is on the same boat as me. both of us are going to get the same shit. well, we are waiting for DEADLINES! and GRADUATION! when the hell is all this shits is going to end?

POP'A'LOC, is my new bunch of friends. with andy, choco, loco, fizah, amy, nizam, hakim, remy, maleek and all of them around me, i will be at ease. i know they can't help me much but they can help me by giving me smile for the whole day. laughter with them for a day is never enough. i want all the jokes for myself the whole day. i know they're not gonna be with me 24/7, but the memories with them will always be forever! i repeat FOREVER. what i wished for now is that, i want to see the smiles and laughter of andy, the crappy jokes from nizam and loco, the lame sarcasms and jokes from hakim and remy, the legong face of choco and fizah. i want all of them NOW! for what i know later on at night i will be meeting them and i want to hide this stress-ness from them. i dont want them to know that im so fucked up especially to andy my bro. if he knows that im stress, he gonna ask alot of ques which i dont want to let it out. cause if i did, i will be back in the thinking mood. and i will treat any places that i sat as my thinking place or chair.

birthdays:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR BEST FRIEND- L.O.C.O! you turned 19 today!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR FRIEND - RAFFI a.k.a BLACK APOCALYPTO you turned 18 yesterday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR CLOSE FRIEND - TIKUUS DINAH! you turned 18 on the friday the 13!
soon its gonna be GOOFY, FIZAH LULLABY, TIMOTHY AND it goes on and on.

cant wait for mine. next month! hahahs. okay that bring up my spirit a bit.
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okay gtg! of to paperworks! uggh, BORING!!!!!!

LABELS: sing me a song of stopping disasters!
MOOD: WHAT THE FUCK!?